Back to December.

Got slim or not?! YES or NO?!!! Hahaha!
Frankly I sent this photo to most of my close friends, they told me that effects can be seen obviously but they love my chubby face more. T___T

I don't remember what is the exact thing which inspired me to diet and get slim and I did and here's the outcome!
Well, for me, slim down is not a trend or a hobby, but it's a habit for me to remind myself that I have to become prettier to gain my self confidence back in order to live in this society.
On the other hand, my boyfriend is way tooooooooo thin and I have to stay thin or get even thinner to match him la wtf. -.-
My mom told me that I honestly look bigger size than him when I stand on his side wtf, so yeah. -.-

Done bullshitting, back to December now.
It's no way to deny that time doesn't wait! It's already the last month of the year man, holly shit!
Reflashing what I've done in this year, let's see.
*finding my resolution post, omg I didn't do any resolution for my 2013 last year meh!!! okay lorrr -.-*

1. Best trainee in Marriott Putrajaya.
Attended internships was one of the most memorable things that I've done in my entire 20-year-old life. I learnt a lot, honestly A LOT. How to communicate with people, how to behave better, how to manage and plan for my time and work and etc etc. I can never learn all these from school and even from home. Got myself a best trainee award in Marriott Putrajaya as well. :DDD

2. Done with Taylor's University Lakeside Campus.
Graduated from my diploma course! 2 years time spent in Taylor's, it wasn't that long, but it wasn't a short time too. I'm missing everything of my dear taylor's now, it was too free and happy to study there honestly. Always complaint for kitchen practical classes because of peeling those freaking tons of potatoes and got hands of butter or onions smells. Always compaints of couln't get a nearer car park and also RM3 entrance fee per entry. Always complaint nothing to eat during break time even though there are Oldtown, foodcourt, Zhia's Kitchen, Kung Fu, Starbucks, korean restaurant, mamak and others in the campus. I miss talking to Ah Xuan in the library and rushing for assignment till late night in 24/7 room with Stephanie. And got a boyfriend from my course too, AHAHAHAHAHAHA! Lastly, got myself as one of the top ten students in DH40. With jury's congratulations weih. Unbelievable rightttt? Lolololll.

3. The boyfriend - J.
Officially in a relationship with J after 2 years of fucking luin shui relationships. -.- Honestly our path wasn't easy from the beginning till now. From Daniel, then William, then Han...2 years of time can totally changed my love story. It's never easy to stay with J frankly. I teared, tried to give up N times, gone crazy and left my unit in the late midnight, told Ah Leong everything with my tears, got drunk during drinking sessions to forget what nonsense or lies that he always told me until my friends hated me, got my heart tortured everyday without knowing how we supposed to be although we met everyday in class. WTF. I acted stranger with him and ignored him as much as I could cuz I just don't know what our relationship is. I hated him, hated myself too, so much. He makes me believe that what it's mine, eventually mine. It's pointless to force things to happen, so yeah we just let time proves everything. Both of us don't remember when is the exact date which we started to date openly, things just happened naturally and I am glad that it happened. :')))

4. Travel to Australia - one of the must-go-country.
Went to Aussie for koalas and kangaroos with le family. I always been wanted to travel to Australia to visit my dear koalas, before its extinction. :'( Although it wasn't a fantastic trip but at least I've been there. So it's still fine. :P

5. Taking degree course in Birmingham, UK.
Well, this decision is one of the biggest decisions I've made ever. I chose to leave home, leave the boyfriend, leave my friends, leave everything I have had in Malaysia to travel to UK just to further my studies. Thank you my parents who give me the biggest support. I miss home so muchhhhh. :'( Feeling guilty when the boyfriend told me that he hates me for leaving him when we just started to date for months. People told me that LDR doesn't work but I don't believe it, baby and I will make it. D; If time rewinds, I will stay in Taylor's for my degree. *没大志！HAIS*

December is the month which I used to reflash what I have done and what I want to do for the next year.
It seems 2013 brought me a turning point in my life, hope that everything will goes smooth as how I wish la! :P
It's 11.57pm now in UK. Wake up for another 9 times to meet baby in London!
I CAN'T WAITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. 

男朋友这小子。

最近的情绪起伏令身边的朋友们担心了，对不起。
我很自以为是，我一直觉得自己可以处理得很好，总觉得没什么事情难得了我。
但是当事情发生时，我竟变成第一个不知所措的那个人。

话，可以说得很有说服力。字，可以写得很美妙。
但是当独自一个人回到房间时，再有说服力的话，再美妙的字眼，也战胜不了强忍回来的眼泪。

很白痴，我懂。
当有人在为写不完的作业而慌张时，我在为了一个男人哭。
当有人在为了下一餐不确定的温饱而烦恼时，我在为一个男人哭。
当有人为了躺在病床上的亲人而担心时，我在为了一个男人哭。
世界很大，但是不知道从何开始这个人已经变成了我的世界。

这个人他的话不多，所以当他跟我多说一句话时，我会觉得很开心。
他很难捉摸，因为他不善于表达。正因为他不善于表达，所以我很没有安全感。
安全感这东西，从来就不属于我。二十年来在任何人身上都找不到。

昨天，他有一段很长的时间没有回复我，他睡觉了我也不知道。
我很生气，但是我选择忍耐。因为为了这种小事而吵，最终我懂最终只会闹得冷战，远距离的斗气和冷战是最忌讳的。不想要这些发生那唯有能做的就是忍。
其实从认识他开始他已经就是这样的人，只是我在奢望身份不同了他会对我有所改变。

刚刚在跟一个朋友随聊，他竟然说了一句令我很讶异的话。
“reply you only takes few seconds, what so difficult?”
我愣了很久。连朋友都肯花这种事件在我身上，为什么男朋友不行？

昨天，他睡醒之后我跟他说了很多话，他也跟我说了很多。
其实当时的心情是很害怕的，因为我很害怕他逃避话题然后又不回复我，问题又继续越滚越大。
当我问他为什么不回复我的时候，他回答得不是原因，而是之前我们间断的话题的下文。
我很懊恼，这是不是一种逃避的举动？
我: 你刚才在做什么？
他：连续剧 面子书 睡觉
我：我一直在等你回复我
他：再找我啦
我当时又愣了很久。你都已经不想理我的感觉，我哪会再找啊？
我：你看连续剧，面子书和睡觉，不能回复我？
他：没有不可以啊
我：你觉得跟我说话很无聊？
他：你在想什么？
我：我很害怕，因为你对我有所不同。
他：有什么不同。
我：我们有多久没有视讯？没有道早安和晚安？（超过一星期了）
他：是你没有说早安晚安 （我一直都有在说，但是都是自己在说久了，我觉得我很白痴）
我：然后你可以很久很久在才回复我，一回复不久就是说晚安的时候了。
他：我不会为了这事跟你吵。
我：我不想跟你吵。只是我真的觉得我们之间有改变，你明白吗？
他：我还是我。
我：25112013 是我们在一起的第七个月。（我只是想缓和气氛）
他：10月25啦 （10月25日是我们两年前开始的日期）
我：好，那就是第25个月。
他：第几个天？第几个星期？
我：我统统有在算。第762天。第109星期。
他：我没话说。
我：我们到底怎么了？
他：不是说我不在意。我觉得大多数男生不会记得这些什么纪念日。For what?
我：我在说的不是纪念日的问题。
他：那你又说？
我：（我很懒惰解释了直接进入重点吧）我是说，我觉得我们之间有改变。我们越来越少说话。已经很多天了，每天只剩下信息，连信息的话题也所剩无几。
他：唉
我：宝贝，感情需要维持。我很爱你，你知道的。我们好不容易走到今天。我相信你知道这一切来得有多么不容易。我也知道你不会想这么容易放弃。我真的希望你和我一起努力。对，远距离很艰难，很辛苦，这些吵架一定有，但是我想你跟我一起面对，好吗？不要丢下我一个人，我很怕，真的很怕。
他：:'( 有时候，我只是不知道怎样回复你，不是不回复。我也是在等你聊新的话题。
我：你应该告诉我啊
他：视讯，我不喜欢视讯。有时候当我想的时候，网线不好。可以怎样？
我：但是那是我们唯一能看见对方的工具啊
他：不是我不想见你，你明白吗？如果我不想见你，为什么我买机票飞去英国找你？我知道新年已经会用很多钱，为什么我还选择去？（男朋友新年会去搭cruise。）
我：好。那我乖乖在这里等你飞来。我觉得我们应该多多聊天。（他真的很难得这么多话跟我说）
他：你去英国之前就知道会这样，还硬是要去。知道那间大学还好而已，还是要去。你留在吉隆坡还是新加坡靠近的地方，我还可以两三个月飞去找你一次。
我：我现在已经在这里了啊
他：你不明白我说的。
我：我知道，但是现在真的不能怎样了啊。我也不想丢下你一个人，你知道的啊，我有多么想一直跟你待在一起。（之前去澳洲，临上飞机前也要见见男朋友才肯上飞机。）但是我现在人在英国了啊，是事实了啊，你要我怎么办嘛？对不起。
（顿时真的有知错的感觉，我竟然忽略了他的感受）
他：我不是要你怎么办。可能你真的已经知道这一切会发生？
我：吵架一定有，就算像以前一样住在一起也会。只是现在距离真的很远，不像以前这样有安全感，所以比较会想歪一边，需要你来纠正我。对不起，是我不对。我没有站在你的角度想，只顾着自己的情绪忘了你也有你的难处。
他：好啦。不要弄我哭，我还得出门。
我：来，我帮你擦擦。

很喜欢这样把话说开，心里真的整个轻松了。
这星期得好好发奋，把作业给做完然后好好等男朋友来陪我过圣诞和新年。:D

感情这回事。

今天跟一位朋友恰恰好谈起心事来。
他告诉我说他，移情别恋了。
但其实事情也不该这样说，就是两个人在一起了没了火花，
又刚好说有另一个人出现让自己觉得更加坚定这段感情不该再继续下去。
他询问我的意见说怎样才能够像冲上云霄Heather和Tony这样和平的分开，大家都可以理智地接受和尊重彼此的决定。
其实我没有很懂感情这回事，自问我还在从自己的经历中很努力的学习。

他这样的经历，令我会想起自己以前不懂事的时候的一个经历。
两个人在一起觉得厌了，腻了，就要放弃，然后还半夜大吵一架直接告诉他我喜欢上别人然后很干脆地说分手。
我还记得当我说了分开这样的话，前男友紧紧抱着我的时候那种内疚感。
其实错的并不是他，但是承受痛苦的却是他自己一个人。多不公平。
我很不想我的朋友变成这样，但是又能怎样呢？:(

我觉得当双方投入了感情这回事的时候，对与错已经不存在了。
事情的发展就在于你自己怎样去看怎样平衡自己。
电视剧很老土不是每次都说勉强没幸福吗？但是却很对。
勉强的是自己，辛苦的是自己。当你做了自己的本分，对方不领情那就算啦。
何必一直纠缠谁对谁错？
当然，我觉得沟通是一个很重要的关键。
男生们都很笨蛋，不说他们就真的不懂。真的是。-.-

我很为难。因为在这件事情上，两边都是我的朋友。
我不想去插手别人的事情，也不会去多管闲事。
但是站在朋友的立场上面，我觉得女方应该有权利知道这件事情。
只是我也不晓得该怎么去跟她说。:(

自己的感情事都没管好，哪还有时间去管人家 :(

话说，再过36天男朋友就会来伦敦找我啦！超级兴奋。嘿嘿嘿
我刚刚还自己一个人去旅行社定了4天3夜的巴黎旅行配套。
直接就买了火车票，酒店加早餐还有迪斯尼的入场票呢！哇 开心死。
从来就没有试过自己一个人处理这些事情，觉得好有成就感哦！:D

我觉得我改换科系，根本就该读event planning嘛！哈哈哈
现在狂在恶补我的法文，以免在法国迷路了回不来。T____T

题外话，最近我很努力在瘦脸。我在试用一个很多部落客和明星都大力推荐的瘦脸精华液。
我觉得对我来说好像有点点效，但是因为才刚使用的关系，所以效果还不怎么明显。
真的有效果了在告诉你是什么吧！

看吧，整张脸还是大巴巴的。-.-

如果我告诉你说我快秃头了，你信吗？

掉发越来越严重，困扰死我了。T___T

08102013

Always have heart to heart talk sessions with Baby T whenever we are on our own.

We share our thoughts and problems to each other every time. In fact, we're just too kehpo lah. :P

I can completely relate my situation with the phrase 你看我好，我看你好。Lololol.

If you know what I mean.

She always says that my relationship with baby is what she always been wanted badly cuz whenever I story her about things happen between me and baby she will definitely like, 'yorrr, so goooood. xxx won't do that to me.'

Her boyfriend is currently studying in UK as well that she doesn't need to suffer LDR, inversely I have to. :'(

That's why I said 你看我好，我看你好。Hahaaa!

Reading back old texts in facebook inbox, old blogs, whatsapp earlier messages, and I realized that I been through so much up and down since form 2.

Feeling a lil bit shocked that I actually behaved that way when I was young. You'll never want to know what I have done wtf. -.-

Chatted with fen fen about D yesterday. 

Seriously miss her too much, we have the same thought towards the same person. 

Back in the year when I broke up with D, fen fen was the one who be in the middle to try so hard to settle for us. She even teared so hard and kept apologized to me that she failed in believe him.

Read D's blog post about I am a bitch and whatsoever shits.

The 'wtf' feeling is still strong even though years had passed. I stalked his gf's blog as well, the girl who keeps mention to public not to judge her if we don't know her stories.

I wonder, what stories you will have? What a bitch. -.-

Thank god I have a boyfie who treats me so well now even we are in LDR.

Baby T asked me, if boyfie comes to UK without letting me know for a surprise, what would I do?

I accidentally said, I will marry him after 2 years I don't care.

She burst laugh in the shopping mall until everyone looked at us. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Cuz boyfie ain't good in giving surprise and planning for something so yeah. -.-

WTF.

Keep on going.

Hi, it has been a week. Another week has past in Birmingham, nothing special happened.

As usual, shop for groceries, skype with the boy and parents and go to school for the 1st week of official lectures. #bored

UK's education system is totally different with m'sia, it's totally different I can say.

What I used to have in m'sia was time ain't enough to spend, pack of classes, tons of assignments and etc,

but in UK, they are relaxing type. 

I have only 3 modules to study in this semester, and only 3 hours the most of each day of class. And, I get two days off in every week which are Wednesday and Friday that I have no class at all. :O

Well, it is bored for me cuz I have no entertainment here. -.-

I don't club (ahem!), gamble, no I don't. Sing k is too expensive to me, probably £25 each person = approx. Rm100. -.- Movie is expensive as well. -____________-

I have so much time to spend in the room with my lappy and my bed. :D

Definitely not gonna waste this opportunity to make myself get slimmer! Ahahahahahaha!

Yes, I start to work out in my room. :O

Hopefully you won't find it weird but I think that it is great to have some thing to do rather than just drama right? :/

I just started my work out day 1 today. Had captured the 'before' pic. Ahahaha! Most people did this right...

Will post it up once I see myself change. :PPP

I hope it won't take me too long lah. Seriously need to have flat tummy and slim legs if not I'm going to die. -.-

要嘛瘦要嘛死。 

Set this as my 名言 so that I could success to be slimmmmmm.

There was a girl told me something which I didn't realize until she told me about it.

She said, 'You aren't fat actually. It's just that the girls around you are too slim that shows that you're chubbier than them.'

I was like, OMGGGG. Yes, my girls are just too slim I don't know whyyy. D;

01102013

Oh well, it's still 1st of October now in UK time while m'sia is 2nd of October already.

The main reason I wanted to post this is to share with you guys few movies I've been watching recently.

Apparently not from the cinema cuz it's so expensive to watch here and the most I got is £5 for student price which is about RM20.00 lah.

2-student-priced-ticket I can watch gold class in m'sia liao! D;

Okay, back to the point. Recently I've fallen in love with the kind of 情感电影 which I used to hate when I was young. Lolololll. 

Not that I'm old now I won't admit it blah blah blah, but I guess I'm just being more mature thinking than I used to be cuz you know, things happen for a reason. Haha. 

Behaving emotional easily, Idk why but I just did. -.-

It's getting lesser to keep in touch with him these days. 

I can't get him most of the time, I don't know where he goes, what he does, I just don't know.

He used to update me, or at least let me know what he is doing or I'll be so worried and helpless at the same time, but he didn't do so for days already.

Yes, starting to feel helpless much especially I'm in so far away from him, almost half of the earth distance away. Helpless is all I can say, seriously.

It's important to check on my phone early in the morning cuz we promised to each other that to greet 'good morning' daily after wake up.

But I seemed not getting his texts these days and frustration hits me right away hardly.

I am not sure if I am the only one who feels that it is so important to keep in touch with the love one in this kind of LDR situation due to several reasons.

Different time zone is the main one. 

When I wake up, he most probably having lunch?

When he almost sleeps, I will be having dinner?

I just feel that our communication time is so less to appreciate every single second, but he doesn't seem think this way.

Even a not-so-closed friend told me that she feels that my frustration, and it affects people.

She used to read my posts and tweets about my boyfie cuz she thinks that we are the perfect two who had gone through so much yet strong bond had been built between both, but recently she said that I don't talk about him much anymore, no more 'baby' can be seen from me.

Feeling sad, very the sad you know. :'(

以前会很兴致勃勃地说good morning baby, good night baby，现在都只说了good night句号。

AHHHHHHHHHHHH. Bullshitted too much! Movies!!!

Watching these movies to cure my emotional, it helps. 

Firstly I've watched a very popular one - 被偷走的那五年。

So far this is the most touching one compare to the other three.

SO RECOMMENDED! 

Please watch it if you want to catch up to the trend. Lol.

It is so hitsssss at the moment. Hahaa.

I teared so much at the last few scenes. It was so cruel to let go of the love one when you got no choice.

T________________________T

Due to the main actress, youtube brought me to another movie which she played a main role as well - 失恋33天。

It is a movie about the days after she got dumped by her boyfriend.

I love the main actor in this movie, 王小贱。He so cuteeee! :D

Lesson: Let go of the bad, and the good will comes to you.

This 白百何, I don't know why her movies are all this sad love stories. Lol.

So here is the third one, 分手合约。

With 彭于晏！♥♥♥

The story line is quite similar with 被偷走的那五年.

Teared as well, their language can kill people seriously. So well said! :'((((

And this, the one I've just watched half an hour ago. Hahaaa.

分手说爱你。

Not 白百何 liao. Loll.

Fiona Sit is soooooo cute! :D

Got interested in this movie because of the comments in youtube. Lol.

Worth watching anyway.

Not 失恋 then 分手。So saddd. :'(

Off-

Words can't describe my feelings right now.

The day has finally came, the day which I don't wish to face it real.

I'm leaving tomorrow, to UK.

This decision doesn't come easy, honestly. It takes alot of courages, hardworks, and patience to be done.

And what I am talking about it's just a starting, haven't mentioned about the hard time that I will be facing in UK yet, and all the stress of school works and stuffs like that. It's not gonna be easy.

Somehow, I don't understand why I would have this decision, but I chose it.

This big baby missed his flight back home yesterday. I think I have some responsibilities on it cuz I wanted to eat Sushi Zanmai so badly before his flight la. Ended up late... :(
So I gave him a shelter at my house for one night. It's the first time that I keep my boyfriend to stay overnight at my house wtf. :O

Never know that being apart can be this hurt until the moment when I sent baby off in the airport.

Used to see this kind of scenes in dramas but when it comes to reality, trust me it hurts shit.

Tears became so heavy in seconds, and I don't wish to say goodbye until I forced to say it.

I always don't believe in long distance relationship, honestly I don't cuz I failed once and that wasn't a real long distance I guess? So yeah.
I don't know how baby does it, but I have a strong feeling that baby and I gonna make it through, our bond is strong. :'))) ♥ ‏

What we've been through isn't easy, that's the reason why what will separate us will not be easy as well.

I believe at this, fully.

Next comes to family. My family gave me the biggest support when I told them about my decision and dream has finally came true.

I wouldn't deny that I dream most of the time that I could study abroad since I was young, and now, it's turns up real!

Of course, without my family all these are not gonna happen. I love my family, so much, so much. ♥ 

My mom is the one who super gan jeong for me and keeps give me lotsa medicine and stuffs to make sure that I will stay well in UK.

Mom, I promise that I will pay back to you one day, I promise.

Friends, I really thank you each and every single of you who tried so hard to meet me up before my flight.

And I also feel sorry that I can't get to meet some of you due to several reasons that I've mentioned repeatedly. I'm so sorry.

I will be back after one year, will definitely see y'all that time kay!

Sincerely appreciate everything from all of you. It's just too much of loves. Xoxo. ♥ 

Lastly, keep in touch with me via skype kay! I love talking with you all. Haha.

And if you want anything from UK, just let me know. Will try my best to get for you. :D

Lots of loves,

PlingChee

09082013

Hai. Currently it's 8.53pm. I'm waiting 9.30pm drama time - Triumph in the skies 2. Hehehee!

Well, I just done packing my lugage and get everything done so that 2mr I have enough time to sleep longer.

Wanted to meet baby up to surprise him before my flight 2mr but apparently I couldn't make it cuz my mom wanna go to another place for meal before heading to the airport. Sigh, plan failed. :(

But it's okay, we'll meet soon after my trip. Just few days more. Still sigh. :((

My mom and I tried to get some sleeping pills in case that I feel suffer in the plane 2mr, but the clinic nearby my house doesn't allowed without doctor's permission.

Omg, I just want to sleep. I don't use it to do crime or stuffs like that kayyyy.

OMG. Save me. T___T

Honestly I don't really excited about the trip I don't know why.

Maybe I've too much things to worry about? Maybe.

I can't let go everything and just go to travel like that, my mind doesn't allow me to do so.

I can't sleep tight everyday. Been waken up almost everyday by calls regarding about visa briefing and application and all.

It's just too stress to settle all these by myself, no one can helps me. T___T

When baby is with me, at least I can just hug him tight and talk nothing. I need him to hold me on, NEED. :'(

Anyway I can do nothing about it, I can just change my way of thinking to make myself happier.

Since there's no one could help me, then I can only depend on myself, right?

It's the first time that I travel out from Asia regions - Australia.

I don't know how the experience will be like la, hopefully I won't get fat after eating all the nice desserts and food of this ang moh lang country. Lololololl.

So yeah, let's enjoy my Aussie trip 2mr! :D

Stay tuned on my instagram, I'm gonna spam nice photos on it. Hahaha!

Drop me likes kayyyyy! Lol.

It's my month!

It's August already, half year plus gone like that.

So fast I'm turning 20 soon, so soon. :(

Being last teen ain't fun at all. It's time to start to plan for life, turning point of life starts here. #stressful

My UK study plan is in progress now, left only visa application and flight tix then I'll be done all the processes.

Omg I'm so scareeeee! :'(

Guess what, I cried so hard last night when I think of LDR with baby.

I can't imagine how hard life will be. SAD. T___T

Okay, I lost my mood to blog liao. Lol.

Gonna continue to watch 中国好声音 now. Addicted to this singing competition recently.

Have a nice weekend and Selamat Hari Raya! :D

This is tooooooooo *beh tahan*!

:'(

Been tearing so hard last night. My eyes swollen like I'm having two big eye bags now. Damn.

Never know that finally I could tear after so long, I really feel suffocating. :'(

Almost bang a car last night when I was driving back to Sunway.

I don't know if it was my fault or his fault in term of law, but I just apologized to him cuz he was damn scary.

T__________________________T

He is an indian, he scolded me with his own language. I just want him to go so I just apologized.

You wouldn't know how helpless I was...hand shook nonstop, I can't even think. :'(

After calm down myself at road side, I told baby about it.

I was expecting he would call me or something, but he didn't so I just continue my journey back to Sunway.

Period pain seriously killing me from top to bottom.

I'm so tired, don't feel like doing anything but lying on bed.

Someone save me please. T___T

Missing baby even more here, especially when I'm hugging my pillows. 

Used to fight over this pillow with him, omg I miss you laaa. :'(((

First hair dyed. :O

Saw this song posted on babe Melissa's facebook wall and I clicked in...

Then I'm addicted...even though he sings nothing except oi oi oi... #lol

So yeah, another random day at home. Was decided to stay home until I saw my friend posted that she was having a hair cut. Then I had a thought too, I need a hair cut as well man!

Never cut my hair since CNY. -.-

Facebook is powerful uh? #facts

The salon where I used to go is no longer my choice cuz my prefered barber isn't working there anymore!

T_____T

Ended up I texted babe Coey to ask her where she used to go for her hair cut and she recommended me T-Plus Hair & Beauty Salon where located in Kajang town.

Fyi, I hate to go to Kajang town juct for a hair cut cuz firstly, the parking problems and second, Kajang will be super crowded with students and young kids during particular times, so yeah. -.-

Anyway, I went at the end, just being so random. :/

Stop bullshitting okayyy.

Normally, I don't really think what hairstyle I want, how I want my hair to be cut or things like that before I go to a salon cuz I don't know, I just not good in this sense. -_____-

I always seek for senior or professional hair stylists cuz I want their opinions and I will ask, why why why all the time. Lololololl.

And I found that most of them are willing to answer my questions, unlike junior hairstylists, they are impatient people. Blahhh. -.-

If you know me, my hair is actually very very less in term of quantity, due to gen I think? *hmmmm*

My hair was same as my mom's hair and my dad is bald, my grandpa and uncles are bald too. Lololollll.

And my hair was naturally very black in colour. I always feel jealous when people have natural brownish hair colour but mine was really really black. Sigh. :(

Coey helped me to make an appointment (sort of?) with the hairstylist - Trey, before I went lah. Merci beaucoup! ♥

Once I reached, Trey was so welcoming and kind to me, then I started to talk to him and ask him lotsa question about my hair. Hahaha!

He wanted to curl my hair at first but I refused. You know la, I'm a super duper lazy person, curly hair need extra cares, I don't have time for that so no thanks. Lol.

Then he said he wants to dye for me, I was like, omg I'm going to dye my hair!?!?!!

Fyi, I never ever dye my hair before due to family rules, dye hair = pai gina (naughty kid). LOLOLOLL.

But then it's holiday man, and I actually wanted to for quite some times already...so I told Trey, just do whatever you like lah. Hahaaa.

This is the outcome. I'm not so sure if you can see it, it's so obvious under the sunlight.

Purposely adjust the picture colour contrast to show you my hair colour. *winks*

Overall I'm satisfied lah, just when the junior was washing my hair hor, damn pain loh.

He used his nails to scratch my scalp, really hen tong. -______-

Not expensive also, wash + cut + dye = RM185.

Thank you Coey. :DDD

I'm still thinking how to explain to my dad when he asks.

Yes, he haven't realized yet cuz 70% of the light bulbs in my house are yellow in colour one, so I HIDE. Lol.

Teach me how leh. :/

呆。

又再一次回到呆在家的日子里。

这种日子我会过得很不知所措，每天盲目重复地做着同一件事情，久了变得很无奈。

我很喜欢忙碌的生活。

充实的生活令我很快乐，但是不知道从何时开始，我已经逐渐失去那种冲劲儿。

只想呆在家，玩无聊的泡咖啡游戏，坐在电脑前重复刷新面子书等社交网。

刚刚放了朋友飞机。对不起啦！

原本想说去看部电影在吃个晚餐，但是，我突然就只想呆在家。

就算什么不做都好，至少在家可以闲。

我是不是厌倦了什么？ :(

倒是喝水变得很积极，我在家可以喝上4L的水。

1L的水可以平均跑3次厕所。我真的觉得我家马桶是我现在最好的朋友了。-.-

告诉你们吧，喝水是减肥最健康的方法！

但是睡前一个小时不可以喝哦！以免水肿嘛。:)

倒数去斗湖的时间还有一个星期。好久哦！:(

时间可以不可以过得快一点，我好想跟朋友们疯疯癫癫地去旅行！

好久没有坐飞机了。真的很喜欢坐飞机的感觉，有那种自由自在的感觉。:D

是不是奇怪我们为什么选择去斗湖？

因为在城市太久，要过一过乡村生活啦！再加上那边有新鲜又好吃的海鲜，还有同学们来自那边，去看看也没坏啊！

我可是既期待又兴奋，还要买好泳衣准备好去海边大玩特玩！

想到都开心。:DDD

好啦，我要继续呆了。

掰掰。

-01072013-

HELLO JULY!

Hopefully it will be a good month to me lah.

Going to travel as much as I could in this month.

Okay, I need money.

After graduate.

Hellos! Short update to you guys on how my life goes now.

It has been almost a week that I finished my schooling life like finally.

Frankly speaking, I started to miss everything in Taylor's.

I'm not those type people who can stay home for a long time on doing nothing, I must do something,

at least something. :(

Been rotting too much isn't good, really.

On that day itself, after announcement of results ceremony, I went to Coco Steamboat at Old Klang Road with my lovely pretty group girls.

Enjoy gossip moments with everyone of them, cuz our thoughts are almost the same.

The way we talk are same, the people we talk are same.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

It is fun. :P

After steamboat, we head to sing k session in Loud Speaker in First Subang SS15.

We just sing and shout as we like. Love to spend time with them! :D

Went Stage Club with them again on a tgif. :D

It has been quite some time that I never step into a club, and now, with my lovely coursemates! :D

I don't wanna story much about that night cuz it is so embarassing that almost all of us got drunk included me.

Images ruined. -_________-

Ah Xuan said it was a happy luen shui day.

Sorry and thank you for everyone of them who took care of me so well and handed me to baby safely after that.

Baby said I smell shit wtf. Will never drink until that level again, I swear.

On the next day, the haze started to get worse and worse, so baby decided to bring me to go to Genting to escape the hazy weather down here.

So we just went up there, and sat in Starbucks for hours and charged our phone there at the same time playing games. -____-

So lame right:? I know.

Randomly decided to stayover cuz it was really hazy and dangerous to drive back from Genting in such weather.

We spent quite some times to get a room cuz Genting was full with people that night.

Ain't joking one, damn crowded I don't know why. -.-

It's like finally to get a room to stay. First time staying in Theme Park Hotel, not bad though.

Well, lesson learnt that random decisions are fucking costly I can say.

Spent damn much on buying stuffs cuz we didn't bring any up there. Zzz.

And for hotel stay as well, burning my purse wtf.

After that 1 night in Genting, we went to 1U for a movie - Switch.

A very not recommended movie. -.-

I'm so looking forward to Despicable Me 2! :DD

Watched Monsters University.

Love this movie so much cuz it's soooooooooo cute! :DDD

Rated for 4.0/5.0

I even asked baby, can I watch it again? But he answered a NO. -.-

Anyone wanna watch it with me? I on I on. Heheheeee!

Wanna watch azdrama now, byebye.

S-T-R-E-S-S-F-U-L

Current situation of mine - stressful.

Yes, I admit that I'm sucks in handling stress.

Emotion controlling failed and I just cried out loud in a sudden while talking halfway to baby and he just let me be until I shut my mouth up then he passed me tissue paper. Lol.

I guess he already used to be lah. Hahaha. I always cry in front of him without any reasons wtf.

Finals is just around the corner and I study nothing yet. Yes, when I say nothing, it means really nothing started yet. D;

I've totally out of idea where my motivation has gone and I don't what can motivate me actually. -.-

Okay, around the corner seems still long to go, I should say that my finals starting the day after tomorrow oh mai geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. T____T

The very first test will be French Listening Test following by French Oral Test on Friday.

Then there will be some revision classes on going during next Monday to Wednesday, AND THEN, the minor war will be starting. 

T_______________________T

You must be wondering, why would I say that minor war, right?

Cuz the real war will be happening during practical tests.

OMG I'VE NOT PREPARED YET AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

For Food and Beverage practical, my upselling skill is really sucks and I haven't memorize the menu given.

HOW TO UPSELL WOHH

I really really scare of the upseeling part cuz candidates will be deal with external and internal juries.

Hope that I can do my upselling well, please bless me. D;

Okay, another thing which is stressing me up is about studying abroad matter.

I'm actually already got the offer letter from Middlesex University which I'm actually quite interested in as the whole degree course only requires 9 months time and the tuition fees is really attractive.

But then I've got some other information about other universities are offering quite good and the uni-es rankings in the world are quite high.

So I went for a consultation with a student advisor from UK education counselling center this afternoon to get more details about the choices of universities which strength in hospitality courses.

The advisor gave me a few uni-es which are quite strange for me that I never heard before cuz they're all in cities where out of London. I don't like countryside woh. :(((

I'm quite impressed with how the UK edu system works that in diploma level is only qualified to enter their Year 2 but not finale year.

If I take the Year 2 course, means that I would have to study 2 years in UK and my mom will not sponsors me any air tickets to fly back to M'sia during these 2 years. 

T_________________T

Yes, I will be missing home so damn much and I guess I will cry every night there for being homesick.

I can't decide anything omgeeee.

Need to talk to someone but there's no one willing to talk to me about this.

And I've no friends studying in UK to give me some personal opinions. Sigh.

What should I do? :(

Currently.

Hello peeps. It has been a long time since my previous post.

I've no idea what's happening right now cuz too much things had happened in these few weeks.

I can't tell 'em all to you, but I will update y'all as much as I can kay?

Loves.

Well, I'm currently staying with my boy now in our new room. 

Okay, actually I'm more likely to call it as hostel but he doesn't like it so yeah, it's our home. -.-

Hmmm, I know that people around who care about me are actually feel that I'm not supposed to get started with J, or things like that.

Yea, I know all of you care of me or trying to protect me from being hurt deeply again and again.

BUT, I've been engaged with this guy for almost 2 years, things happened without notice, I know how it goes and facts proved me that he changed so much.

I knew that he changed, I can feel his heart, I just could.

I will be appreciate that if you are blessing me, sincerely. :')

2 years, not a long period yet ain't short as well.

Uncountable things happened in between, both of us knew it.

He said, 在一起两年了，只是中间我们都有外遇。

Complicated relationship like this ain't fun, honestly speaking.

No matter how I tried to get rid of him, I just failed from head to bottom.

It's not under my control, not. D;

Staying together is not really fun. Maybe I haven't ready for couple life yet, maybe?

Wash clothes together, cook together, sleep together, wake up together, play computer together, everything together. Lol.

Couldn't deny that he has the power to make me happy. He makes me smile like nobody does before. :D

We're more to best friend type, share things to each other, we talk every shits.

Love the way we communicate. Hehee!

Oh ya, I'm applying to further my studies in London, UK.

Finger crossed that everything goes well. I really really wanna go and have new experiences in my life.

J was trying to stop me from studying abroad, but if you know me, nothing is gonna affect my decision once I've decided. Lol.

Thank you dad and mom for supporting me, big loves to them.

One of my favourite song during high school time. #throwback

May! ♥

Hellooooo to you! A brand new month - May.

Sorry that I haven't been posting any since 8th of April. :(

Was really really busy about my courseworks and stuffs. I can't describe how stressful I am so yeah, just forget it lah.

My classes ain't that pack as previous terms so you may think that what am I busying about?

Final reports PSR are killing all the hospitality students from top to bottom I can say.

We have to prepare 11 reports which contain personal research and mind thinking stuffs like that.

It's really driving me crazy.

Almost 24 hours I was thinking, what should I research for theme A, for theme B and blah blah blah. D;

Oh yea, if you followed me in Twitter, you may already knew this, but still, I wanna say,

I AM FINALLY IN LOVE,

again. Lololololollll.

Took this photo secretly while he was still sleeping. Ahahahahaa! :P

Waking up by your love's side is one of the best damn thing in the world. ♥

Yes, he is J. It's like finally official? I don't know.

I wouldn't say he is my boyfriend, but I won't deny that I love him.

Love the way he holds me...

Love the way he says he loves me... 

Love the way he hugs me... 

Love the way he tickles me...

Love the way he talks to me... 

Love the way he cares me...

Yes, I love this guy, at least, for now.

Can't remember this feeling, long lost one. When someone cares, you can feel the warmth.

I can see his changes for me, obviously one. :')

He waited 1 hour for me to finish my class.

He paid for all the meals for me.

He brought me to korean BBQ when I said I want to eat.

He stopped me from eating chilies like my dad did cuz he wants me to recover faster from my ulcers.

He accompanies me home everytime after the perfume uncle incident happened.

He gave me his unit's key.

And so on...

There isn't anyone care me like he does for such a long period liao. :'D

You might curious that how could I forget those things he did for me last time?

Frankly, I didn't let go, yet.

I did check on his chatbox, whatsapp, texts and etc while he's not around.

I know I shouldn't do so, but girls...you know right. :(

I find nothing suspicious.

I don't know...

Been sticked together with him almost everyday for weeks.

Then here comes a question on my mind to him,

Me: 每天粘在一起不显咩？

Him: 你在讲什么啦

Me: 真的显的话记得跟我讲，我会回家。

Him: 哪里有可能？不要三八。

Me: 我认真。

Him: *hugs* 不要讲废话。你对我显是吗？

Me: ...

I refused to answer him cuz my answer is no, and never. ♥

Bear Paw.

Finally had my bear paw just now w my sampat sister after so long I have been craving for. :DDD

Even though people keep telling me it's nothing special blah blah blah, but I just wanted to try it by myself.

You can't influence me! BU KE NENG. Lolololl.

Basically the concept is same as Subway I can say.

You just have to follow the steps and make your own style of bear paw. ;D

1. Choose the type of bread ( Milk, Brown Sugar, Whole Wheat)

2. Choose the filling - chicken, fish and etc.

3. Match with your favourite sauce! 

Then DONE. :D

I ordered brown sugar bread + spicy chicken + thousand island sauce.

And sister had whole wheat bread + fish + thai sauce.

Yes, it really tastes like normal slices of bread with stuffs in between. I mean, normal lah.

But not that bad though, I feel that mine tastes better. Lololl.

But their fish is really crispy one, worth trying. ;)

I was struggling on how to take picture nicely until my sister also tired on mumbling me. Ahahaha.

I even asked her to hold my phone for me to selca. Lmao.

Still, my outcomes wasn't satisfying. Dafuq. -.-

Take note on their operation hours! ;)

Happy weekend peeps!

Teeth.

Good morning peeps! It's 1.40am now so I should greet with morning, right?
Aiya cincai lah. Lol.

You know it's just like a kind of habit, maybe I should say it is a kind of behavior.
You wouldn't want to go to bed even though you're fucking sleepy in the midnight.
Like seriously, it's just...yeah. -.-

So, I went to the dental care today, for teeth washing.
Used to have phobia about teeth washing cuz of the sound. So damn geli one. -.-
This is the second time I went for teeth washing, the previous time was 3 years back. ;O
I'm just too lazy to go every 6 months wtf.

My dentist mumbled me for not seeing him frequently as every 6 months to 9 months. Sorry. :(
So yeah, went on a normal procedure of teeth washing.
As usual, I hold my hand so tight while he was clearing those dirty stuffs between my gums and teeth.
Hate the part the most, painful. T___T

My dentist told me that I have 2 impacted wisdom teeth which I have to remove them immediately.
What is impacted wisdom teeth? Here you go a simple yet understandable video to show you. ;)



He asked me to take care of my teeth well by brushing them with a correct way everyday.
The best way is to brush after every meal and every morning and night.




Arghhhh. Thinking when to do my teeth removal surgery.
I don't have any rest time lahhhh. T___T

Do.Not.Serious.

It's really strange that I will blog at this time. Look at the clock, wtf it's 4.19am now.

People should be sleeping right now but yeah, my eyes are super big cuz I took my nap just now until Kenzo woke me up for dinner.

I have no ideas why he is so caring until I can let him decide what I should do.

If you don't get what I mean, it's something like...

'Hmmm, what time should I wake up later? I want to sleep now as I just done my test and I'm super sleepy I couldn't think. -.-'

'Hmmm, 8.30pm okay? I go bath and eat now. Later 8.30pm I wake you.'

'Okay. Then I go wash my clothes now then later remind me to dry my clothes ya.'

'Okay.'

-8.30pm-

'WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP '

'Yayayayayayayaya. *sleeps*'

'Fucking wake up and go for dinner.'

'Okokokokkkkkk. -.- *sleeps*'

'XXX WAKE UP PLEASE'

'AHAHAHAHAHAHA WHY THE FUCK YOU WANNA CALL ME THAT NAME'

Fyi, I hate people to call me in my full name, and he knew it. -.-

'Woke up ady. What should I eat? Should I call delivery or go downstairs dabao?'

'...'

And something like this. Lol.

I just asked him everything which I couldn't decide, okay maybe I could just I'm kinda lazy to think. :P

Thank you for being so caring!

But please lah, stop using my facebook account and comment on people's pictures and statuses wtf.

YAYY. I'm finally done with my Term 5.

Hopefully I get to pass this term and proceed to Term 6 lah. *fingers-crossed*

Screwed up w those papers, anyway, I can't change anything so just, let it be. :/

Holidays has started. Please jio me to go out okay?

I don't want to rot at home and do nothing as I have only 1 week of holiday. :(

Spent most of my time w J recently. We studied, talked, had dinner, fought, argued, and went to school together.

Many things happened and I think he changed me, I mean my thinking.

I learnt that 'not to take things seriously' from him.

People at the ages of us, are still in the level of playing around.

I mean yeah, we flirt, to people, nor each other.

Maybe we did have feelings but still, we flirt to others.

Time needed I think?

He asked me kinda lots of questions which I didn't expect that he would ask.

'Do you love me, still?'

I said, yes? but there's something more I need. Security perhaps? Lack of the feelings of secure.

Then he hugged me, so tight.

He said, he doesn't have an quan gan from me as well.

We're just same type of people. 太像了！

I even checked his whatsapp and facebook messages in front of him, I know I shouldn't do that but, I just did. -.-

And he grabbed back his phone instantly and shouted at me, 'YOU ARE TOO OVER.'

Then I was fucking pissed off and ignored him for the rest of the night.

Of course, he apologized to me and kept on explaining shits but I just talked nothing to him.

I don't know how to say, is he care? or he just doesn't want our relationship to have any changes?

Or something else?

Sometimes I don't dare to have a lot of imagination.

You know, over thinking kills.

I can't remember since when, I didn't ask him those questions like,

'what are us?' 'what type of relationship are we?' 'do you love me?' 'are you fucking care on me?' 

I don't really ask him, anymore. Cuz I had enough.

It's okay, I don't want to know.

顺其自然 will do, right?

One day, we had our dinner at our lao di fang - a random foodcourt in PJS8 area.

Mana tau we met Kanaga over there wtf.

Fyi, I don't wish to meet any friends when hanging out w him. Just don't. -.-

Kanaga shouted my name loudly and I was like, 'ehh? Hi...lolll.'

Then he was like, 'Ohhhh! Ohhhhh. Don't know me already lah?'

P/s: J and Kanaga are friends too, they both are from Sabah. :/

So it's like, so damn fucking awkward. -__________-

But anyhow, cincai lah. Lol.

I told him that I'm going back to Kajang on Saturday after I wake up.

He said he wanna stay with me on Friday, I rejected.

I started to put on barrier between us, I guess?