Do.Not.Serious.

It's really strange that I will blog at this time. Look at the clock, wtf it's 4.19am now.

People should be sleeping right now but yeah, my eyes are super big cuz I took my nap just now until Kenzo woke me up for dinner.

I have no ideas why he is so caring until I can let him decide what I should do.

If you don't get what I mean, it's something like...

'Hmmm, what time should I wake up later? I want to sleep now as I just done my test and I'm super sleepy I couldn't think. -.-'

'Hmmm, 8.30pm okay? I go bath and eat now. Later 8.30pm I wake you.'

'Okay. Then I go wash my clothes now then later remind me to dry my clothes ya.'

'Okay.'

-8.30pm-

'WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP '

'Yayayayayayayaya. *sleeps*'

'Fucking wake up and go for dinner.'

'Okokokokkkkkk. -.- *sleeps*'

'XXX WAKE UP PLEASE'

'AHAHAHAHAHAHA WHY THE FUCK YOU WANNA CALL ME THAT NAME'

Fyi, I hate people to call me in my full name, and he knew it. -.-

'Woke up ady. What should I eat? Should I call delivery or go downstairs dabao?'

'...'

And something like this. Lol.

I just asked him everything which I couldn't decide, okay maybe I could just I'm kinda lazy to think. :P

Thank you for being so caring!

But please lah, stop using my facebook account and comment on people's pictures and statuses wtf.

YAYY. I'm finally done with my Term 5.

Hopefully I get to pass this term and proceed to Term 6 lah. *fingers-crossed*

Screwed up w those papers, anyway, I can't change anything so just, let it be. :/

Holidays has started. Please jio me to go out okay?

I don't want to rot at home and do nothing as I have only 1 week of holiday. :(

Spent most of my time w J recently. We studied, talked, had dinner, fought, argued, and went to school together.

Many things happened and I think he changed me, I mean my thinking.

I learnt that 'not to take things seriously' from him.

People at the ages of us, are still in the level of playing around.

I mean yeah, we flirt, to people, nor each other.

Maybe we did have feelings but still, we flirt to others.

Time needed I think?

He asked me kinda lots of questions which I didn't expect that he would ask.

'Do you love me, still?'

I said, yes? but there's something more I need. Security perhaps? Lack of the feelings of secure.

Then he hugged me, so tight.

He said, he doesn't have an quan gan from me as well.

We're just same type of people. 太像了！

I even checked his whatsapp and facebook messages in front of him, I know I shouldn't do that but, I just did. -.-

And he grabbed back his phone instantly and shouted at me, 'YOU ARE TOO OVER.'

Then I was fucking pissed off and ignored him for the rest of the night.

Of course, he apologized to me and kept on explaining shits but I just talked nothing to him.

I don't know how to say, is he care? or he just doesn't want our relationship to have any changes?

Or something else?

Sometimes I don't dare to have a lot of imagination.

You know, over thinking kills.

I can't remember since when, I didn't ask him those questions like,

'what are us?' 'what type of relationship are we?' 'do you love me?' 'are you fucking care on me?' 

I don't really ask him, anymore. Cuz I had enough.

It's okay, I don't want to know.

顺其自然 will do, right?

One day, we had our dinner at our lao di fang - a random foodcourt in PJS8 area.

Mana tau we met Kanaga over there wtf.

Fyi, I don't wish to meet any friends when hanging out w him. Just don't. -.-

Kanaga shouted my name loudly and I was like, 'ehh? Hi...lolll.'

Then he was like, 'Ohhhh! Ohhhhh. Don't know me already lah?'

P/s: J and Kanaga are friends too, they both are from Sabah. :/

So it's like, so damn fucking awkward. -__________-

But anyhow, cincai lah. Lol.

I told him that I'm going back to Kajang on Saturday after I wake up.

He said he wanna stay with me on Friday, I rejected.

I started to put on barrier between us, I guess?