Back to December.

Got slim or not?! YES or NO?!!! Hahaha!
Frankly I sent this photo to most of my close friends, they told me that effects can be seen obviously but they love my chubby face more. T___T

I don't remember what is the exact thing which inspired me to diet and get slim and I did and here's the outcome!
Well, for me, slim down is not a trend or a hobby, but it's a habit for me to remind myself that I have to become prettier to gain my self confidence back in order to live in this society.
On the other hand, my boyfriend is way tooooooooo thin and I have to stay thin or get even thinner to match him la wtf. -.-
My mom told me that I honestly look bigger size than him when I stand on his side wtf, so yeah. -.-

Done bullshitting, back to December now.
It's no way to deny that time doesn't wait! It's already the last month of the year man, holly shit!
Reflashing what I've done in this year, let's see.
*finding my resolution post, omg I didn't do any resolution for my 2013 last year meh!!! okay lorrr -.-*

1. Best trainee in Marriott Putrajaya.
Attended internships was one of the most memorable things that I've done in my entire 20-year-old life. I learnt a lot, honestly A LOT. How to communicate with people, how to behave better, how to manage and plan for my time and work and etc etc. I can never learn all these from school and even from home. Got myself a best trainee award in Marriott Putrajaya as well. :DDD

2. Done with Taylor's University Lakeside Campus.
Graduated from my diploma course! 2 years time spent in Taylor's, it wasn't that long, but it wasn't a short time too. I'm missing everything of my dear taylor's now, it was too free and happy to study there honestly. Always complaint for kitchen practical classes because of peeling those freaking tons of potatoes and got hands of butter or onions smells. Always compaints of couln't get a nearer car park and also RM3 entrance fee per entry. Always complaint nothing to eat during break time even though there are Oldtown, foodcourt, Zhia's Kitchen, Kung Fu, Starbucks, korean restaurant, mamak and others in the campus. I miss talking to Ah Xuan in the library and rushing for assignment till late night in 24/7 room with Stephanie. And got a boyfriend from my course too, AHAHAHAHAHAHA! Lastly, got myself as one of the top ten students in DH40. With jury's congratulations weih. Unbelievable rightttt? Lolololll.

3. The boyfriend - J.
Officially in a relationship with J after 2 years of fucking luin shui relationships. -.- Honestly our path wasn't easy from the beginning till now. From Daniel, then William, then Han...2 years of time can totally changed my love story. It's never easy to stay with J frankly. I teared, tried to give up N times, gone crazy and left my unit in the late midnight, told Ah Leong everything with my tears, got drunk during drinking sessions to forget what nonsense or lies that he always told me until my friends hated me, got my heart tortured everyday without knowing how we supposed to be although we met everyday in class. WTF. I acted stranger with him and ignored him as much as I could cuz I just don't know what our relationship is. I hated him, hated myself too, so much. He makes me believe that what it's mine, eventually mine. It's pointless to force things to happen, so yeah we just let time proves everything. Both of us don't remember when is the exact date which we started to date openly, things just happened naturally and I am glad that it happened. :')))

4. Travel to Australia - one of the must-go-country.
Went to Aussie for koalas and kangaroos with le family. I always been wanted to travel to Australia to visit my dear koalas, before its extinction. :'( Although it wasn't a fantastic trip but at least I've been there. So it's still fine. :P

5. Taking degree course in Birmingham, UK.
Well, this decision is one of the biggest decisions I've made ever. I chose to leave home, leave the boyfriend, leave my friends, leave everything I have had in Malaysia to travel to UK just to further my studies. Thank you my parents who give me the biggest support. I miss home so muchhhhh. :'( Feeling guilty when the boyfriend told me that he hates me for leaving him when we just started to date for months. People told me that LDR doesn't work but I don't believe it, baby and I will make it. D; If time rewinds, I will stay in Taylor's for my degree. *没大志！HAIS*

December is the month which I used to reflash what I have done and what I want to do for the next year.
It seems 2013 brought me a turning point in my life, hope that everything will goes smooth as how I wish la! :P
It's 11.57pm now in UK. Wake up for another 9 times to meet baby in London!
I CAN'T WAITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. 

男朋友这小子。

最近的情绪起伏令身边的朋友们担心了，对不起。
我很自以为是，我一直觉得自己可以处理得很好，总觉得没什么事情难得了我。
但是当事情发生时，我竟变成第一个不知所措的那个人。

话，可以说得很有说服力。字，可以写得很美妙。
但是当独自一个人回到房间时，再有说服力的话，再美妙的字眼，也战胜不了强忍回来的眼泪。

很白痴，我懂。
当有人在为写不完的作业而慌张时，我在为了一个男人哭。
当有人在为了下一餐不确定的温饱而烦恼时，我在为一个男人哭。
当有人为了躺在病床上的亲人而担心时，我在为了一个男人哭。
世界很大，但是不知道从何开始这个人已经变成了我的世界。

这个人他的话不多，所以当他跟我多说一句话时，我会觉得很开心。
他很难捉摸，因为他不善于表达。正因为他不善于表达，所以我很没有安全感。
安全感这东西，从来就不属于我。二十年来在任何人身上都找不到。

昨天，他有一段很长的时间没有回复我，他睡觉了我也不知道。
我很生气，但是我选择忍耐。因为为了这种小事而吵，最终我懂最终只会闹得冷战，远距离的斗气和冷战是最忌讳的。不想要这些发生那唯有能做的就是忍。
其实从认识他开始他已经就是这样的人，只是我在奢望身份不同了他会对我有所改变。

刚刚在跟一个朋友随聊，他竟然说了一句令我很讶异的话。
“reply you only takes few seconds, what so difficult?”
我愣了很久。连朋友都肯花这种事件在我身上，为什么男朋友不行？

昨天，他睡醒之后我跟他说了很多话，他也跟我说了很多。
其实当时的心情是很害怕的，因为我很害怕他逃避话题然后又不回复我，问题又继续越滚越大。
当我问他为什么不回复我的时候，他回答得不是原因，而是之前我们间断的话题的下文。
我很懊恼，这是不是一种逃避的举动？
我: 你刚才在做什么？
他：连续剧 面子书 睡觉
我：我一直在等你回复我
他：再找我啦
我当时又愣了很久。你都已经不想理我的感觉，我哪会再找啊？
我：你看连续剧，面子书和睡觉，不能回复我？
他：没有不可以啊
我：你觉得跟我说话很无聊？
他：你在想什么？
我：我很害怕，因为你对我有所不同。
他：有什么不同。
我：我们有多久没有视讯？没有道早安和晚安？（超过一星期了）
他：是你没有说早安晚安 （我一直都有在说，但是都是自己在说久了，我觉得我很白痴）
我：然后你可以很久很久在才回复我，一回复不久就是说晚安的时候了。
他：我不会为了这事跟你吵。
我：我不想跟你吵。只是我真的觉得我们之间有改变，你明白吗？
他：我还是我。
我：25112013 是我们在一起的第七个月。（我只是想缓和气氛）
他：10月25啦 （10月25日是我们两年前开始的日期）
我：好，那就是第25个月。
他：第几个天？第几个星期？
我：我统统有在算。第762天。第109星期。
他：我没话说。
我：我们到底怎么了？
他：不是说我不在意。我觉得大多数男生不会记得这些什么纪念日。For what?
我：我在说的不是纪念日的问题。
他：那你又说？
我：（我很懒惰解释了直接进入重点吧）我是说，我觉得我们之间有改变。我们越来越少说话。已经很多天了，每天只剩下信息，连信息的话题也所剩无几。
他：唉
我：宝贝，感情需要维持。我很爱你，你知道的。我们好不容易走到今天。我相信你知道这一切来得有多么不容易。我也知道你不会想这么容易放弃。我真的希望你和我一起努力。对，远距离很艰难，很辛苦，这些吵架一定有，但是我想你跟我一起面对，好吗？不要丢下我一个人，我很怕，真的很怕。
他：:'( 有时候，我只是不知道怎样回复你，不是不回复。我也是在等你聊新的话题。
我：你应该告诉我啊
他：视讯，我不喜欢视讯。有时候当我想的时候，网线不好。可以怎样？
我：但是那是我们唯一能看见对方的工具啊
他：不是我不想见你，你明白吗？如果我不想见你，为什么我买机票飞去英国找你？我知道新年已经会用很多钱，为什么我还选择去？（男朋友新年会去搭cruise。）
我：好。那我乖乖在这里等你飞来。我觉得我们应该多多聊天。（他真的很难得这么多话跟我说）
他：你去英国之前就知道会这样，还硬是要去。知道那间大学还好而已，还是要去。你留在吉隆坡还是新加坡靠近的地方，我还可以两三个月飞去找你一次。
我：我现在已经在这里了啊
他：你不明白我说的。
我：我知道，但是现在真的不能怎样了啊。我也不想丢下你一个人，你知道的啊，我有多么想一直跟你待在一起。（之前去澳洲，临上飞机前也要见见男朋友才肯上飞机。）但是我现在人在英国了啊，是事实了啊，你要我怎么办嘛？对不起。
（顿时真的有知错的感觉，我竟然忽略了他的感受）
他：我不是要你怎么办。可能你真的已经知道这一切会发生？
我：吵架一定有，就算像以前一样住在一起也会。只是现在距离真的很远，不像以前这样有安全感，所以比较会想歪一边，需要你来纠正我。对不起，是我不对。我没有站在你的角度想，只顾着自己的情绪忘了你也有你的难处。
他：好啦。不要弄我哭，我还得出门。
我：来，我帮你擦擦。

很喜欢这样把话说开，心里真的整个轻松了。
这星期得好好发奋，把作业给做完然后好好等男朋友来陪我过圣诞和新年。:D

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最近很爱哭。眼泪不停使唤，想流就流，一点也不听话。
情绪化又来了。没几个月又来一次严重的，就连说话的力也没有。很难受。
晚上睡不着，看着天花板也可以流泪，流着流着就累了，才睡着。

是我自以为是，我觉得我能做到。真的没有想过问题可以来得这么快，还没三个月啊。
他说，我是没有安全感。我说，二十年来都没有过啊。
男朋友这回事，我真的怀疑了，我怀疑我维持远距离恋爱的能力，我没有安全感。

能医不自医。当朋友有事情，安慰人的话我能够说得天花乱坠，但是在自己身上却一个字也用不上。
怎么办？我很无助，我很累。


:'(

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It has been awhile to update. I lost my mood to blog, I don't know why.

Mood isn't in the right position, dreaming all the time is what I am doing 24/7.

I want to talk to my girls, but there is no one listening. :(

I want to talk to my boyfriend, but he isn't listening to me most of the time.

Feeling helpless and lonely seriously, it's just so fuck up.

Texting with the boyfriend is what I'm always doing, but getting his reply honestly is one of the hardest things to happen.

Everytime when he replies me, it's the time to say goodnight and head to bed.

I find it pointless, life like this is meaningless.

And I started to get tired with it, real tired.

I miss my boyfriend, but I am tired, LDR is tiring.

Tiffany and Toi are so gan jeong for me and help me to plan on his UK trip already.

Wanted to bring him to Bicester Village, to eat dim sum at the chio-est chinese restaurant in chinatown, White Hart Lane to watch football, and so and so. *just random*

Everyone is exciting, except him. He seems just don't care.

Bought him some winter clothes as winter preparation, but he doesn't even started to pack his luggage.

I said start to pack early so that you won't be rushing at the end, never listen.

Well, fine den.

Tiffany was facing her first love downhill two weeks before. It was the first time I saw her cried exactly same as how I cried over my ex boyfriend wtf.

There was hysteria in her cry, as loud as she wanted.

I told her, 彻底地痛一次，大哭一次。给自己一个期限，就一个礼拜，哭完一个礼拜就打起精神来。

Treat yourself better, no more crying over stupid guys.

Tried my best to comfort her cuz I knew when things like this happen, girls definitely need companion.

Just companion, not much words and talking.

I even cried with her together in the train, how stupid.

It is just scary when you realized people can be changed within few seconds. That's reality.

It's nature, I knew it. People are selfish, as I do, I admit that.

I'm not good in talking, in comforting people, in giving advices, but I listen and remember.

She is soft-hearted. She forgives when people apologize.

Scolded her for not taking my words, but I already knew it would happened, cuz that's how she is.

I said to her, '你把我每天跟你讲那些话都是sohai话啊?!' 

I was too angry, but nothing else I can do.

Xuan asked me not to comfort her for the 2nd time, just give her last advice and remind her to think wisely before do any decisions. No regrets after decide, that's it.

 Everyone needs to learn how to get up from fallen.

It's a life circle, no way to escape.

I know it, but I don't want my friends to get hurt as how I gone through. 

The pain is indescribable, you will lost your mind.

I am sad, but no one listens.

I miss my family, badly.

冬天。

人人都说，冬天一定会很爱吃，所以一定会越吃越胖！

对于我这种花钱减重的人，那种害怕真的不是开玩笑。

事实上，我真的发现自己来了英国后，对于减重这计划来得更加认真。

一天只吃一餐，而且我的食物60%都是蔬菜鸡蛋菇类。

其中一个原因是这里的肉都不好吃，尤其是猪肉，那股臭味真的是太难顶了。

英国的食物真的太不行了，所以趁着在这里的两年，我希望我能够把体脂肪成功的减至20%！

是很难，但是我会努力。

今天，阿绚同学竟然打电话给我跟我聊天！太不可思议了。

我们这几天都有在相互update对方近况，竟然在短短的2个月就发生了很多很多事情。

人生真的是太奇妙了。

天气越来越冷了，现在已经7度8度左右。阳光顿时变成极为珍贵的能源。

离家近两个月，真的很想家。:(

爸爸妈妈，我很想抱抱你们。T___T

感情这回事。

今天跟一位朋友恰恰好谈起心事来。
他告诉我说他，移情别恋了。
但其实事情也不该这样说，就是两个人在一起了没了火花，
又刚好说有另一个人出现让自己觉得更加坚定这段感情不该再继续下去。
他询问我的意见说怎样才能够像冲上云霄Heather和Tony这样和平的分开，大家都可以理智地接受和尊重彼此的决定。
其实我没有很懂感情这回事，自问我还在从自己的经历中很努力的学习。

他这样的经历，令我会想起自己以前不懂事的时候的一个经历。
两个人在一起觉得厌了，腻了，就要放弃，然后还半夜大吵一架直接告诉他我喜欢上别人然后很干脆地说分手。
我还记得当我说了分开这样的话，前男友紧紧抱着我的时候那种内疚感。
其实错的并不是他，但是承受痛苦的却是他自己一个人。多不公平。
我很不想我的朋友变成这样，但是又能怎样呢？:(

我觉得当双方投入了感情这回事的时候，对与错已经不存在了。
事情的发展就在于你自己怎样去看怎样平衡自己。
电视剧很老土不是每次都说勉强没幸福吗？但是却很对。
勉强的是自己，辛苦的是自己。当你做了自己的本分，对方不领情那就算啦。
何必一直纠缠谁对谁错？
当然，我觉得沟通是一个很重要的关键。
男生们都很笨蛋，不说他们就真的不懂。真的是。-.-

我很为难。因为在这件事情上，两边都是我的朋友。
我不想去插手别人的事情，也不会去多管闲事。
但是站在朋友的立场上面，我觉得女方应该有权利知道这件事情。
只是我也不晓得该怎么去跟她说。:(

自己的感情事都没管好，哪还有时间去管人家 :(

话说，再过36天男朋友就会来伦敦找我啦！超级兴奋。嘿嘿嘿
我刚刚还自己一个人去旅行社定了4天3夜的巴黎旅行配套。
直接就买了火车票，酒店加早餐还有迪斯尼的入场票呢！哇 开心死。
从来就没有试过自己一个人处理这些事情，觉得好有成就感哦！:D

我觉得我改换科系，根本就该读event planning嘛！哈哈哈
现在狂在恶补我的法文，以免在法国迷路了回不来。T____T

题外话，最近我很努力在瘦脸。我在试用一个很多部落客和明星都大力推荐的瘦脸精华液。
我觉得对我来说好像有点点效，但是因为才刚使用的关系，所以效果还不怎么明显。
真的有效果了在告诉你是什么吧！

看吧，整张脸还是大巴巴的。-.-

如果我告诉你说我快秃头了，你信吗？

掉发越来越严重，困扰死我了。T___T

Halloween 2013 @ Birmingham.

Hiiiii. Finally an update of life after so many emo posts. 

I'm sorry bad on handling my emotion. My bad. :(

Yeshhhh, it was Halloweeeeen! How was your halloween night? Had fun dressing up?

Mine was pretty awesome even though there was some bad experiences happened in the club but yeah, deal with it! It's club, so...okay. -.-

It's my first time dressing up for Halloween cuz my gang in Malaysia doesn't into this kind of special occasions so I don't have kaki lah. Loll.

I can say that everyone in UK loves Halloween. They even celebrate it a week before the actual date and you can see people walking on the street with those coooool costumes like banana, minion and etc.

Been searching for cheap and nice costumes from the market and what I get is really disappointing. -.-

I got myself a set of spider witch costume which suppose to look like this.

But the bottom part of the dress is sooooooo loose and I look so sohai on it so I cut it all and I just wear the top with my own skirt which I used to wear to taylors wtf. -.-

We took more than an hour to get our make up done then headed to meet up Jessie and her gang for pre-party session @ Bryan's place.

And this was my face of the night. :D

Fyi, drinking in a club can be 3x expensive than outside a club. That's the purpose of having a pre-party to get ourselves tipsy first. Lol.

Let's pictures to do the talking.

The weather was so cold but we insisted not to wear any outwear to the club wtf. Regret max I was almost dying in freeze! 

It was a really awesome by seeing people dressing up differently during Halloween. :D

Pretty memorable and I guess I will miss it when I back to Malaysia.

Tiffany was actually wanted to dress up as red riding hood but ended up...this is how she looked it lah. 

Lois was a sexy copppp!

Jessie, the french maid.

In Nightingale Club... my first club in UK. :D

With Jessie, Sissy and Ann, the china mates.

Jessie, Toi and Joe.

P/s: Toi wanted to be Joker but we don't have any white foundation for him so...a failed joker lah. Lolololl.

Know this girl randomly in the club. The only thing I remember about her is her name is Marry. Lol.

Oh yeah, I guess maybe you'll be wondering what bad experiences I faced last night. 

It was really really...oh my god. -.-

A random guy was dancing with me and he suddenly held me super tight Idk what the fuck is wrong with him and he was trying to pull me to the side Idk what he wants...den I tried to hard to push him away but I couldn't cuz he held me fucking tight I couldn't do anything wtf.

Thank god Bryan saw that I was struggling and he quickly pull me away and back to the gang's.

I didn't even saw that stupid asshole's face. He kept on kissed my neck and it was really disgusting I wanna die.

Bryan is the one in white shirt at the bottom. THANK YOU SO MUCHHH!

I realized that I hate to club if baby is not with me.

All I want is to stand at the side and see how crazy the crowd is.

Was thinking how I did club daily from Wed to Sat night continuously and it happened weekly last two years. Seriously how I did that. -.- I can even went to school on the next day at 8am class wtf.

Not now anymore I swear. -_____-

Happy Halloween people and Happy November!

Last sprint to make 2013 a better year! ♥ 

What can I do?

I always hate seeing people complain about stuffs, therefore I will never let myself being part of the complainers.

Life is wonderful, I mean we should always be thankful of what we have, but not complain about stuffs we don't have, isn't it?

In fact, people demand. This is the reason why people complain.

Negative emotions like to stick with me recently. 

Mood swings easily, over thinking are what I am doing all the time.

I don't know why, I just can't explain. It sucks.

Tear easily when listen to songs, when hug my pillow, even when chat with the boyfie.

Anything can affects me easily. Seriously hate this, so not me.

Trying hard to be a busy person by started doing assignments, cleaning my room, tidying my cupboard and stuffs that can fill up my time. But still, negative emotions won my mind.

I wonder, what the fuck is wrong with me?

Wanted to talk to people around me, but there's none.

Wanted to talk to my friends, but timezone doesn't allowed me to.

And lastly, the person I wanted to talk to the most, my boy, but I feel disappointed to talk to him.

The feeling is so helpless, what else I can do?

I miss ah leong, I miss talking to him. He is the one who knows me so well even I don't voice out he can tells out what my mind is thinking.

This fella is like living in my stomach, know everything of me so well. :(

He even remember my period date although I don't ask him to remember, instead of my boy.

Human compare. I hate myself so fucking much.

Most of the time I just wanted to share my thoughts, my ideas, my life in UK, everything of mine with him, but he just take it lightly or ignore me.

It makes me feeling scare to share stuffs with him, yes I have this feeling.

Been wondering before tell him something, and sometimes I just like, urghhh whatever.

This shouldn't happen in a relationship isn't it?

He is my motivation, he is my supporter, he is my listener, he is my partner, he is my boyfriend, he is my best friend, he is my everything.

But why I don't feel any supports from him anymore?

All these even affects my appetite. I can only eat a meal in 24 hours.

I find food is disgusting and I hate them all.

No ideas.

:(

心情很糟糕。
我不知道是我自己的问题还是什么，很不开心。

我一直很兴致勃勃，因为男朋友要来英国陪我过节，圣诞节和阳历新年。
很开心很开心，开心得连觉都睡不好一直在想该带男朋友去哪里玩，要什么冬衣给他什么的。
结果，就被他的一句话给否定掉我全部。他妈的。

顿时心里真的很不是滋味，但是我又不想闹脾气，毕竟他还是花了钱买机票这么远地要飞来。
话收在心里不说我又很难过，朋友看见我就问我说怎么了，我也不知道该怎么说。
打了很长一堆字想要告诉他我的不开心，最后还是不发出去还一键删掉全部。
很不自觉地就哭了。

不知道从何时开始，开始不再说早安或晚安。我很坚持地说每天都有在说，但是受到的回复是冷淡的就会像被泼了冷水的感觉。很讨厌。
一天两天或许还受得了，但是我现在已经不记得我们从何时开始把这个互相承诺的简单事情也要忽略掉。
远距离难道就一定要经历这些有的没的吗？

今天一下午都在找东西做让自己很忙很忙不想这些事。
但是当自己一休息的时候，还是会情不自禁的去看男朋友有没有找我的迹象。
结果令我很失望很失望，那就是没有。
一整天都不联络心里整个就七上八下，那种不安很讨人厌，真的很讨厌。
但是还是硬硬要强迫自己不要做那个踏出第一步的人。很痛苦。

不知道怎么了，安全感这种东西真的就好像不属于我。
从小到大都一直是自己很努力的在寻找这种感觉，但是就是没有。

还记得以前生活营里玩过的一个游戏，测试出我是一个极度没有安全感的小孩。
老师说我不轻易相信别人，就算是亲人，也与我有一道防火墙。
真的一定要这样吗？:(

男朋友，我真的希望你懂我为什么要一直这么坚持。
在你眼里可能都是小事不重要，但是对我来说承诺就是承诺，答应了就得做到。
难道不是这样的吗？:'(

08102013

Always have heart to heart talk sessions with Baby T whenever we are on our own.

We share our thoughts and problems to each other every time. In fact, we're just too kehpo lah. :P

I can completely relate my situation with the phrase 你看我好，我看你好。Lololol.

If you know what I mean.

She always says that my relationship with baby is what she always been wanted badly cuz whenever I story her about things happen between me and baby she will definitely like, 'yorrr, so goooood. xxx won't do that to me.'

Her boyfriend is currently studying in UK as well that she doesn't need to suffer LDR, inversely I have to. :'(

That's why I said 你看我好，我看你好。Hahaaa!

Reading back old texts in facebook inbox, old blogs, whatsapp earlier messages, and I realized that I been through so much up and down since form 2.

Feeling a lil bit shocked that I actually behaved that way when I was young. You'll never want to know what I have done wtf. -.-

Chatted with fen fen about D yesterday. 

Seriously miss her too much, we have the same thought towards the same person. 

Back in the year when I broke up with D, fen fen was the one who be in the middle to try so hard to settle for us. She even teared so hard and kept apologized to me that she failed in believe him.

Read D's blog post about I am a bitch and whatsoever shits.

The 'wtf' feeling is still strong even though years had passed. I stalked his gf's blog as well, the girl who keeps mention to public not to judge her if we don't know her stories.

I wonder, what stories you will have? What a bitch. -.-

Thank god I have a boyfie who treats me so well now even we are in LDR.

Baby T asked me, if boyfie comes to UK without letting me know for a surprise, what would I do?

I accidentally said, I will marry him after 2 years I don't care.

She burst laugh in the shopping mall until everyone looked at us. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Cuz boyfie ain't good in giving surprise and planning for something so yeah. -.-

WTF.

2年了。

在一起的第713天。

其实我也不懂这算不算是在一起真正的日期，但是10月25日对我们来讲是最值得纪念的日子，所以就将就一下啦。哈哈！

刚刚在面子书上看randomly地看了看我跟他的关系状态，真的是笑到我肚子痛。

原来两年前我们的沟通方式是这么的...sohai。哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！

Lolololll. 笑死我了！

还有一些是我们跟同学公开在面子书上谈要去clubbing的事，

那些留言真的是很好笑！

原来这两年内发生的事情还真多。

每当我跟他讲起学校的事情的时候，都会觉得很好笑。

虽然一路走来不容易，但是回头看看，就是因为这些喜怒哀乐才让这一路走来不是平平淡淡地过去。

现在回想这些，还不错嘛！哈哈。

Keep on going.

Hi, it has been a week. Another week has past in Birmingham, nothing special happened.

As usual, shop for groceries, skype with the boy and parents and go to school for the 1st week of official lectures. #bored

UK's education system is totally different with m'sia, it's totally different I can say.

What I used to have in m'sia was time ain't enough to spend, pack of classes, tons of assignments and etc,

but in UK, they are relaxing type. 

I have only 3 modules to study in this semester, and only 3 hours the most of each day of class. And, I get two days off in every week which are Wednesday and Friday that I have no class at all. :O

Well, it is bored for me cuz I have no entertainment here. -.-

I don't club (ahem!), gamble, no I don't. Sing k is too expensive to me, probably £25 each person = approx. Rm100. -.- Movie is expensive as well. -____________-

I have so much time to spend in the room with my lappy and my bed. :D

Definitely not gonna waste this opportunity to make myself get slimmer! Ahahahahahaha!

Yes, I start to work out in my room. :O

Hopefully you won't find it weird but I think that it is great to have some thing to do rather than just drama right? :/

I just started my work out day 1 today. Had captured the 'before' pic. Ahahaha! Most people did this right...

Will post it up once I see myself change. :PPP

I hope it won't take me too long lah. Seriously need to have flat tummy and slim legs if not I'm going to die. -.-

要嘛瘦要嘛死。 

Set this as my 名言 so that I could success to be slimmmmmm.

There was a girl told me something which I didn't realize until she told me about it.

She said, 'You aren't fat actually. It's just that the girls around you are too slim that shows that you're chubbier than them.'

I was like, OMGGGG. Yes, my girls are just too slim I don't know whyyy. D;

01102013

Oh well, it's still 1st of October now in UK time while m'sia is 2nd of October already.

The main reason I wanted to post this is to share with you guys few movies I've been watching recently.

Apparently not from the cinema cuz it's so expensive to watch here and the most I got is £5 for student price which is about RM20.00 lah.

2-student-priced-ticket I can watch gold class in m'sia liao! D;

Okay, back to the point. Recently I've fallen in love with the kind of 情感电影 which I used to hate when I was young. Lolololll. 

Not that I'm old now I won't admit it blah blah blah, but I guess I'm just being more mature thinking than I used to be cuz you know, things happen for a reason. Haha. 

Behaving emotional easily, Idk why but I just did. -.-

It's getting lesser to keep in touch with him these days. 

I can't get him most of the time, I don't know where he goes, what he does, I just don't know.

He used to update me, or at least let me know what he is doing or I'll be so worried and helpless at the same time, but he didn't do so for days already.

Yes, starting to feel helpless much especially I'm in so far away from him, almost half of the earth distance away. Helpless is all I can say, seriously.

It's important to check on my phone early in the morning cuz we promised to each other that to greet 'good morning' daily after wake up.

But I seemed not getting his texts these days and frustration hits me right away hardly.

I am not sure if I am the only one who feels that it is so important to keep in touch with the love one in this kind of LDR situation due to several reasons.

Different time zone is the main one. 

When I wake up, he most probably having lunch?

When he almost sleeps, I will be having dinner?

I just feel that our communication time is so less to appreciate every single second, but he doesn't seem think this way.

Even a not-so-closed friend told me that she feels that my frustration, and it affects people.

She used to read my posts and tweets about my boyfie cuz she thinks that we are the perfect two who had gone through so much yet strong bond had been built between both, but recently she said that I don't talk about him much anymore, no more 'baby' can be seen from me.

Feeling sad, very the sad you know. :'(

以前会很兴致勃勃地说good morning baby, good night baby，现在都只说了good night句号。

AHHHHHHHHHHHH. Bullshitted too much! Movies!!!

Watching these movies to cure my emotional, it helps. 

Firstly I've watched a very popular one - 被偷走的那五年。

So far this is the most touching one compare to the other three.

SO RECOMMENDED! 

Please watch it if you want to catch up to the trend. Lol.

It is so hitsssss at the moment. Hahaa.

I teared so much at the last few scenes. It was so cruel to let go of the love one when you got no choice.

T________________________T

Due to the main actress, youtube brought me to another movie which she played a main role as well - 失恋33天。

It is a movie about the days after she got dumped by her boyfriend.

I love the main actor in this movie, 王小贱。He so cuteeee! :D

Lesson: Let go of the bad, and the good will comes to you.

This 白百何, I don't know why her movies are all this sad love stories. Lol.

So here is the third one, 分手合约。

With 彭于晏！♥♥♥

The story line is quite similar with 被偷走的那五年.

Teared as well, their language can kill people seriously. So well said! :'((((

And this, the one I've just watched half an hour ago. Hahaaa.

分手说爱你。

Not 白百何 liao. Loll.

Fiona Sit is soooooo cute! :D

Got interested in this movie because of the comments in youtube. Lol.

Worth watching anyway.

Not 失恋 then 分手。So saddd. :'(

第一次在英国搭火车。

来红，心情整个大不好。

每个月最痛苦的时候，最难受的时候，也是最情绪化的时候。

朋友们难得来到伯明翰，大家很爽快地邀约全部相识的人聚一聚喝喝酒聊聊天，但是我选择了自己回家。

大姨妈你是非得要在这个时候来吗？！对不起朋友们，我扫兴了。

他妈的，明天还是我正式上课的第一天，希望一切都安好吧！

说得好像有点太严重，不过还是算了吧，也是些废话而已。

我的搭车伙伴, Miss T。:D

趁我记忆还很清晰的时候，我想把我的伦敦亨登历险记给记录下来。

P/s: 亨登的英文名是Hendon。

这可是我在英国第一次搭火车+地铁，他们这里的人叫地铁作tube，去到亨登找朋友去。

原本一直在心里面想说，哇！要去伦敦了。那里一定很漂亮什么什么的。结果！-.-

Okay, 先不说那里怎样，我要一一告诉你们我跟T小姐经历了什么事情，我们两只无头苍蝇真的是神道一个阶段。哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！

首先呢，我们一大早就在车站办了我们的Railcard，有了这张卡，每次搭火车我们就可以省下1/3的搭车费。

拿到卡了之后，我们就买了伯明翰直达亨登，然后就兴高采烈地排队上火车去。

Birmingham New Street - London Euston

由于早餐还没吃，饿着肚子地去搭火车，然后我们就在车上一直睡睡睡，反正是接近两个小时的车程，所以就管它的。

忽然，到了London Euston，我们的火车竟然不继续前进，我们就从睡梦中惊醒，被赶了下车后，毫无目的地在那车站问东问西。

在那个车站，我们一直看到的路程表都是张这种样子。他妈的是谁看得懂啊？！

相信你们也看不懂吧。我就画一画给你们看。

从Euston去到Hendon Central，费时40分钟。

而且！我们的车票并不是到Hendon Central Railway Station而是写着Hendon Railway Station，也就是说其实我们是搭错了行程线。

但是也是到了同样的一个地方，所以就算了吧!

粉红色的Leicester Square和Tower Hill正是伦敦的市中心。

不约而同地买了同款不同色的靴子。:D

玩了玩，吃了一餐每个人大约10英镑的韩国餐。

其实亨登比我们想象中真的是差太远了，就像是一个郊外一样。

交通好不方便，截一辆的士都得用跑的。从宿舍去到热闹一点的街道都得花上半个小时的车程，搭得士哦！贵死了。

幸亏一开始转换了大学，不然...D; D; D;

问一问了人，才知道原来亨登是属于伦敦zone 3，就连离chinatown也得花上半个小时的火车程。超麻烦的说。

吃完韩国餐，我们就打算回去伯明翰。结果，这两个人也说要跟我们一起回去。哈哈！

回程就恐怖了。我们竟然有一度是处在迷路+无助的状态中。

去了这个车站又说不对，到了那个车站又没火车。然后就算了，打算重新买一张车票，但是那个车站的怪伯伯又一直不指点我们还用很不耐烦的语气乱乱帮我们按那个卖票的机器。

他妈的，真的有够衰。

在火车上，又一路没得好坐，只能坐地上，还没关系，还以指点我们说去伯明翰站的一定要去前面的车箱，还我们从最后的车箱一直一直走到去最前面的车箱。

中间还要遇上很多喝醉酒的怪人。

还好，我们遇见一位很好心的女生，问一问之下，原来她也是马来西亚人。

顿时就觉得，哦我的天！终于有点希望的感觉。D';

我们就趁机问了她很多搭火车的知识和关于在英国的生活小提示。

终于在凌晨12点回到了伯明翰，真的是累死了。

但是说真的，这一趟旅程学了很多很多知识，说起来真的很好玩！:D

下一次搭车就有可能是去找男朋友了，期待中。<3 p="">