-121212- ♥

It's 121212 today! What a special date and it's a must for me to update a blogpost. :DDD

Working hard on maintaining my blog as it is getting dead day by day. I'm sorreh! T_____T

P/s: no idea I lost one of my eye on the pic above. -.- but it's okay, I still love it cuz somehow I look a lil emo yet still faking smile. It reflects my mood of 121212 so well. :'(

Blahhh. Slap me slap me. Trying not to post emo posts but failed.
Haiya, life is not just about happy maa, sad things also must record, right? Haha. Self-convincing wtf.

Saw my ex is doing quite good now and I think I'm happy for him cuz he gets a new girl over there. :) Dafuq.
WHO WILL FEEL HAPPY WHEN YOUR EX IS GETTING A NEW GIRL BUT NOT YOU!?!
Seriously, I'm trying to be happy for him okayyyy. Fuck. -.-

He did whatsapp me last week. And finally I replied to him almost 2 months after.
Fyi, we didn't really say 'let's break up' or whatsoever breaking-up-must-say-words, we just don't reply to each other, AT ALL. That's it, that's our break up ceremony. Lolololll.

So yeah, finally I replied him cuz I think no point for not replying since he is my friend still.
What I have on my mind was, wow, finally a greeting from you after so long.
Not much chatting and I hate the awkward moment. -.-

'Hey how are you' 'Hey, uhmm not die yet' 'Okay good. Sure you have a good life there right?'
'Yaa, I guess so. Haha.' 'Thought you will not reply me.' 'Lol. How about you?' 'Yaa, I'm fine.'

Something goes like this. I swear this is the AWKWARD-est moment with him ever.
Okay, it does bother me for a period of time and I even told my friend that he whatsapp me and sent me regards things like that. -.-

I was so positive until I got no idea this is actually just a fucking way of him to reduce his guilt?
*That time I don't know that he already has a girlfriend.*
My friend are the one who told me that he is in a relationship. I was like, wow really? at first.
After some gossiping with her, only I realized, NO WONDER HE WILL FINDS ME THAT DAY LAH!
So the wtf righttttttt. You know, 不是出自真心的问候很恶心。
It's so gross. -.-

Nevermind it's okay. I got my mind even clearer now to let go of this guy.
You'll support me, don't you? :')
Time needed.

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J, another guy who has the power to make my mood swings. The feelings as last year is back.
I know I fall for him but it's still in the controlable condition so yeah, rational will do?

I told him before, hey I like you. Then he just said, me too.
That's it. No more to-be-continue.
After few months, he asked me back, hey do you still like me?
I was like, wtf? you expect me to like you until now even you don't give a shit to me?
Lolololll. After that he always like, hey I want you to fall for me again.
Of course I say NO, I'm not that stupid. Mind still clear okay.

Flirtationship can brings happiness, but not too over.
Maybe this is the best way to both of us?
Not gonna force anything to happen, I'm so tired.
If we're meant to be, it will happens. :)

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Once again, happy 121212 everyone!
1 more hour of this day to end, faster confess to your crush. GOGOGO! :D
For those who are in a relationship, appreciate your partner and don't give up easily. :)
And for those who are single and available as me, we deserve someone who deserve us! Haha.
Smileee. :D