Forever.

无人不晓的歌曲，百听不厌的旋律，还有琅琅上口的歌词。

真的，以前的歌真的都很好听。:') 

在工作的时候无意间听到驻唱歌手唱了这首歌，当时我根本听不进别人在说什么，只想好好地把歌给听完。

 最近发生了很多很多事情，搞得我有点神经不正常。 

听同学说，学校竟然发生抢劫案！ 我真的不明白，为什么要抢别人的东西？

难道你就不会自己好好地自食其力来得到自己想要的吗？

我知道，如果每个人都会想，那么罪案就不会发生，警察也会乐得清闲。

但是，难道人们真的没发现这腐败的社会根本是太超过了吗？

什么虐待狗狗，踩死兔子，少女强奸老伯，停车场打劫，香水陷阱，什么一大队怪屁都有啦！

是怎样？以前的安宁日子是太无聊了厚？ 算了算了。

只能说，无论是在家还是外出都得万分小心。

就算是在家，也会有贼爆屋打枪。

真的是，彻底无言。 

不是我要说什么，但是我真的不懂学校的保安费是白给的哦？

保安，不是要确保安全的吗？不是吗？！ 唉，可悲。

去学校上课也得很很很很很小心了。 我很想念学校咯！:( 

话说，我看了破晓下篇啊！！！

真的很兴奋！！！！！:D

碍于工作的关系，所以我原本是打算11点放工后去看半夜场的，可是真的太累了，

所以我选择地二天早点起身去看。

无论怎样，总之就是要看就对了。哈哈！

我记得我有哭，不知道为什么，就是想哭。

或许是现实生活里没有借口让我流泪，所以当某些剧情有一点点感动或令人心寒的时候，我就哭。

Lollll.

虽然我觉得好看，但是我还是希望还没看的你们不要抱太大的希望去看。

希望越大，失望越大。

人人都明白这道理吧！

其实我真的没想过结局会是这样，有:O到！

真的有！！！

一定要去支持Cullen家族，对Bella不离不弃的Jacob还有新成员Bella和Renessmee哦！:DDD

FOREVER. ♥

懒。

嗨。现在的时间是凌晨1点45分。

心情很沉重，对，我心情不好。

很努力让自己开心起来，但是夜晚一来到，寂静还是免不了。

我偷偷拿了三天假，超懒的。

明天又得上班去了，想到就觉得无聊。

这样的日子我竟然过了接近两个月。一直告诉自己，很快的，时间过很快。

发现，一直都是自己在帮自己忙。

自己告诉自己要坚强，因为没人会这样告诉我。

自己告诉自己要努力，因为没人会帮我解决问题。

自己告诉自己要撑，因为没人在我倒了会扶我起来。

有时真的很累，但是又如何？只能撑。

这三天来大部分的时间都自己在过。

我不喜欢别人烦我，但是有时又会觉得寂寞。很矛盾。

但我宁愿寂寞，也不愿让我莫名的人来烦着我。

寂寞，至少安静。

自己去了Bangsar一趟。找到一间环境好好的咖啡厅，坐了大半天。

雨下得好大好大，服务生还会为我撑伞。

多久，没有人为我撑伞了？

选了个靠窗边的座位，看着窗外的雨一滴一滴的嗒在地上。

就这样，我坐了很久，很久。

简单的一碟意大利面和杯热巧克力，但是真的好好吃。

很喜欢这样环境悠闲的咖啡厅，很喜欢这样安静的坐上老半天。

Cafe Barbera

我一定会再去。

那天，自己一个人去了好多地方。

虽然很累，但我觉得很充实。

当然，我还是希望能找到一个愿意陪我坐在窗边看雨滴的人。

#nowplaying

Tgis ♥

TGISSSSS ♥ 

Love weekend so freaking much but too bad that reality is hurtful. :( #werk

Finally I can enjoy my Saturday cuz next day I only have to work starts at 3pm. :DDD

Waking up at 6 in the morning is killing, I don't know how I survived everyday to wake up from my lovely bed when I was in primary school.

D;

I've no idea what's wrong with me recently.

I can play my phone for hours and ignore the world when I feel like want to. -.-

The battery can drop from 100% fully charged to 42% only I satisfied.

When I flashed back what I've done, uhmmm I can't remember a single thing. :O

Am I crazeh or what?

Ignored my lappie for days cuz I can update myself in social networks via my phone.

I'm sorry that keep delaying my posts.

Sorrehhh readers! I love you mwah! ♥ 

Okie, stop bullshitting and here is it about my TGIS. :D

I miss my bunch of friends so much. Our gang name - BFF.

They are so awesome until I could just laugh my lungs out and don't care whatsoever image it is.

Just the way we are and we rock it! :D

Got the invitation card from Issac Quan for his sister's wedding dinner will be held on 17th of Nov which means is yesterday - a Saturday night. :)

Yayyyy! Tgis rockssss!

So damn exciting for the dinner cuz we've been an ages not gather up for meeting like how we used to be previously cuz everyone is busying on schools and works. :(

So yeah, here is the outfit that I wore for dinner.

I know that I'm fat, on my way to diet so just gimme time okay? T_______T

I always wonder why I can't look pretty in pictures. :(

Envy those girls with their pretty faces and bodies. Anyway, I love myself still. Haha.

Leopard dress from Kitschen, black pump heels from Bershka, pochette from Michael Kors, Esprit purple watch and Voir bracelet.

Actually I did a lil curl at the bottom of my hair, but it didn't last long and it seemed nothing even though I had applied the waxing foam. -.-

Wasted my time wtf.

I started to feel sleepy right now so allow me to let the pictures to do the talking. :P

新婚快乐 :DDD

Kills.

Guess you can predict what I am going to blog about from my Twitter/title right?

I should learn how to control my emotion better, but I always failed. :(

Finally a big-cry yesterday, eyes swollen when I woke up this morning. Fml.

I just sat on my bed and cried for 1 hour plus?

Until my stomach is playing drum then only I went to downstairs and search for food w/ Running Man. Haha.

Failed on diet plan? Nonoooo, you are wrong. I didn't get to eat any foods at the end cuz I can't find any foods from kitchen. -.- #happyorsad

(Y)

The feelings just like when all the things clash on you in a sudden then no ones is there to lend you a hand. :'(

People always say, disappointments come from expectations.

But still, people still put on expectations. Why? Cuz they believe, they believe the things they put hope on will happen.

In fact, we're all cheating on ourselves, cuz life's like this.

The more you want. the harder you could get.

Positive minders will think that, oh! it's a kind of challenge in life or something, you'll be fine after you get through it. So yeah, stay strong.

But! Do you know that how fragile human beings are?

I'm just a human, I'm just a girl.

T_________________________T

The gang I used to have ain't the same anymore. 

I don't know if I'm the one who changed or time changes everything.

I don't mean to blame, anyone or anything, just that I couldn't believe that it happened. 

Told myself to chill/calm/xi guan jiu hao, but tears in my eyes just roll down like a waterfall.

I was too cared? Yes, I did cuz they are my buddies for life.

When those who disappointed you are who you cared, it kills.

Not hurts but kills. Non of the words can describe the heartache feeling. NON.

Over thinking is what kills me most, because I care everyone of you?

Yes, I have everything I want, but I don't happy.

One of the funny tweet from Twitter:

Who said that money can't buy happiness? It's happier to cry in a Mercedes than on a bicycle.

LOL?

True but I don't find it's happier to talk to a Coach porch purse than talk to a true friend.

Thank you Eetong still, for knowing me so well and I know she tried to cheer me up. :')

I miss talk to my mom. :'(

Internship caused me can't meet up w/ my family like always.

T_______________________T

Helpless.

***

I chose study abroad, only IF everything allows lah. 

If everything goes smooth, I will be leaving to Melbourne for degree.

New environment will do, I'm so tired liao. :'(

Yes or no?

Hi. A random post for today due to I've got nothing to do now. -.-

Boredom kills. Fml.

Realized that I'm having my hard time now on any decisions. Yes, ANY.

I can't even decide on eat or don't eat, am I sick? Dafuq.

YES or NO is driving me crazy and I'm always can't choose which of them to be my answer.

Not only boredom kills me now, dilemma kills too. Shit.

There's a few things which I'm always been thinking of but until now I couldn't make any decisions.

One of it is...

Abroad or local?

I believe that if you followed my Twitter, you'll be seeing that I tweeted about my further studies for N times.

And I even discuss about this with few of my friends, and parents as well.

Every single of them had given me different answers, this made me more confuse on my future. :'(

Mom asked me to consider Aussie than UK due to the distance is nearer and Aussie is famous in education.

Plus, I've relatives are living there so they might can help me on.

The problem that I'm worried about is, life there will be so much tougher than in Malaysia where the environment is like totally different.

No mamak, no yamcha, no roti bakar, no pan mee, no milo, no soya, no Sushi Zanmai, no Pavilion, no GSC, no Lavender, no friends, and no family.

T____________T

Can I really stand for all these? Doubt!

AhMay said Melbourne is good, can always party like a party animal. LOL.

But I don't think I wanna be a party animal there cuz it's really pricey for my parents to pay for my expenses in overseas.

As she said, Melbourne is a place which suit me more according to my behaviour, she thinks that I'm study + party type. So Melbourne is the best for me.

Seriously? :OOO

Selina suggested me to search about Melbourne too. She even gave me the name of the University.

Thank you babe! :)

She did her high school edu there so she is quite familiar with Aussie and she told me that she regret coming back for college! OMG.

Aussie really that good huh?

I found that it's hard for me to do research about study abroad cuz I have less friends who has experiences in this. :(((

Need more suggestions pleaseeeee.

In economy perception, mom asked me to go to UTAR for cheaper school fees reason.

But if I insist to go to overseas, she'll pay for me still.

Awwww! What I did to deserve such loving and world best mom as her? ❤

But I had searched about UTAR, the course there isn't my favourite one. So yeah, NO for UTAR.

Furthermore, I don't think I wanna continue in Taylor's. 

As coursemate - Toi said, study for so long just wait to overseas only ma, why want to stay in Taylor's like forever?

True also.

For me, Taylor's University is like in the middle.

Either choose higher to go to overseas, or lower to choose local private U.

I don't want to waste my parents' money for paying so much for me so I must think real deep for this.

:(

I can't decideeeeeee! HOWWWW

T______________________________T

06112012 ♥

Adele's voice is just so beautiful right?

I bet no ones will say NO cuz it's a truth! ♥

Oh well, guess what am I gonna blog about for today?

MY OFFDAY. :DDD

Teehee! Life without relax is shit.

As usual, my offday falls on Tuesday which is a weekday and most of the people are not free. D;

So lucky of me that have Stephanie this coursemate who is same type as me!

We used to discover good food and nice items from shopping malls.

I still remember how we went to Sunway Giza just to find Poco Homemade but we failed cuz it's no longer available there. T___T

Yes, I met up with her yesterday.

I drove to Suriamas to meet her up and she was the one who driving whole day. Thank you girl. ♥

Randomly wanna eat cakes and I came out w/ an idea to go to Dreamz Bakery.

We found it after turned a few rounds in Kota Damansara area.

Too bad that the shop is close on every Tuesday. FML max. D;

Den we changed mind and headed to +Wondermilk in PJ SS21 area.

Found out that there's so many good food restaurants and we just wanna eat them all! :D

Wasn't able to get to try cupcakes in +Wondermilk due to heavy rain. :(

After that we just headed to One Utama for a movie and Sushi Zanmai.

Not bad lah, I'm freaking in love w/ Zanmai. Teehee.

A 2 hours plus movie. I was about to sleep inside the cinema hall.

Not that nice as I expected, high expectation kills? :(

Btw, James Bond is still handsome and I don't like M. -.-

I feel happy cuz she's dead. Lalala.

Rating: 3.5/5.0

After movie, I went for dress and heels hunting.

Dress mission failed cuz I don't really like those mature look dress. :(

I like something casual + arrogant + simple.

But I succeed to buy a pair of new heels. :DDD

Love it max, too cool!

Not sure whether you follow my instagram, please do so if you haven't. :)

I've posted it up on my instagram. Hehee.

Spotted it last time at KLCC w/ babe tong but I didn't buy it last time cuz I already owned a pair of new heels.

BUT MY HEELS HAD BEEN BITTEN BY MY DOG AND IT'S SPOILED! T____T

Heartache!

Knew that this shop is available in One Utama so I went to find it.

Bershka  is a retailer and part of the Spanish Inditex group (who also own the brands of Zara, Massimo Dutti, Pull and Bear, Oysho, Uterqüe, Stradivarius and Zara Home).

It's also a brand which fashion designers' first choice. :)

This pair of heels is so costly but I bought it still. D;

I'm worried that I will regret and get emotional unbalanced if I missed it again. Lol.   

No more new heels until New Year! I swear.

Couldn't find any display of this heels in Bershka, and I decided to show the staff babe tong's instagram.

And he said, "Yes. It's available here."

I was about to fly that time! :DDD

But they took quite a long time to find it out cuz they not yet display it out since it's new arrival.

An auntie was trying to buy it but it was in my hand, so yeah, I'm like, I MUST BUY! NO CARE. 

Lolololll.

After that, we went to 有骨气 steamboat where located in SS21 area.

It has been ages I never have steamboat as dinner! :(((

Finally. :D

Ate like a monster w/ Stephanie cuz we both were too happy. Haha.

Well spent of my offday.

Happy girl I am. :DDD ♥

Wanted to find J before I went back but he late reply me so next time bah. :(

06112012 ♥

Alohaaaaaa peepo!

Did you realize that I've changed my header? :D

No more LOVE, I'm now more to VAIN. :P

Lolololll. Please don't slap me!

Just back home from a catching up session w/ Ashley, ma ex-coursemate. :(

Miss her so much and I started laughing from the beginning of our met up.

Laugh all the night while chatting about life, love, studies, and etc.

Changed so much of our life, but we're still behaving the same.

[March 2012]

Tell me I've become slimmer, pleaseeee. :P

I miss the moment w/ her in Uni. :(

She used to be my partner, and now I'm aloneee! T_____T

WHY SHE STOPPED STUDY WOHHHHHH

Sigh.

Well, back to normal now. Tuesday is ma off day.

Has been waiting for this day to come for so long.

I NEED REST LAHHH! T____T

Somehow, I already start used to work in FnB department now.

More time will do. Supervisor praised me that I've been improved so much compare to Day 1. :DDD

I can do it I can do it.

Lost contact w/ Mr.Leong recently.

He seemed 人间蒸发 to me, I don't know what's wrong again but I know that he's ignoring me.

Well, this is the N times I posted about he ignores me so I'm not gonna post about it anymore.

I just hate being ignore so much, wondering why people ignore people since they are all people.

Tell me why?

***

Watched movies last Saturday - 1. Paranormal Activity 4.

Para is one of the series movie that I've been chasing since the first epi was released.

From 1 camera to few cameras, I still prefer the 1 camera one, more focus.

Uhmm, 4 is not bad compare to 2 and 3. 1 is ze best among all.

I felt so scared while watching it fml.

Grandson wasn't w/ me this time, sad. :(

He's my Para partner. Lolll.

I don't understand the ending btw. Can someone please explain it to me uh?

Rating: 3.0/5.0

Movie 2: Natural Borm Lover 《天生爱情狂》

Dislike this type of Hong Kong movie, so pointless. -.-

Nothing much to write about so I just straight to the point to rating kay?

Actually I'm just lazy. :P

Rating: 2.0/5.0

1 of the star is for ChiLam Cheung only cuz he's so cute and handsome here! :DD ♥

Errr, one more! AOD drama Highs And Lows 《雷霆掃毒》 had came to an end.

STUPID ENDING!!!

Everyone is died. Wtf?

Poon Sir not supposed to die like that, he should been tortured 99!!! ;(

Gek sei argh!

剖白篇之我的自述。

哈咯，人类！

11月3了，你们过得还好吗？

11月，一切都还不错吧？:)

今天要来篇我的自述，为的是消耗消耗我的时间啦。

现在睡觉，好像有点太早了。哈哈！

从下午开始就一直在脑海里想，这篇该写些什么，

所以你们一定要耐心的把它读完哦！谢谢你嘛。:P

我呢？其实我的全名叫作 - 刘慧芝；没错！就是智慧的慧，芝麻的芝。

在我很小很小的时候，妈妈说无论她怎样教我写我的“慧”字，我都学不会。

所以啊, 我小学的时候用的是“卉”，花卉的卉。简单很多有没有？:D

但是现在我长大了嘛，所以当然是用回本名咯。Teehee!

好朋友都叫我Ah Ji。阿芝谐音啦！哈哈。

当兵的马来同胞们叫我Domo，因为我第一天去报到的时候他们就看到我用着很多Domo的东西，钱包啦，装电话的啦等等。哈哈。

当兵的朋友们就叫我冰淇淋，因为Pling Chee很接近冰淇淋嘛。

有的就叫是Ice Cream啦，慧芝啦，Pling Chee啦，Lai Chee啦等等等等。

话说，你知道我Pling Chee的名字怎样来的吗？

其实我以前有说过耶！哈哈。但是我不介意再说多几次，很白痴。:P

以前还是Friendster时期的时候啊，刚刚要sign up的时候，就一直很懊恼该放什么名字。

正巧，姐姐正在观看台湾电视节目《女人我最大》。

蓝心湄就拿着那些亮亮的首饰在那边说“Pling Pling Pling 很亮有没有”

然后Pling Chee就这么的诞生了。哈哈

P/S: Chee是我真名的最后一个字。

好啦，我知道我真的很白痴。-.-

我今年十九岁，1993年出生的，那年的8月25是我呼着这个世界第一口氧气的日子。

妈妈，您辛苦了。

很庆幸，我生长在一个完整的家庭。

我有爸爸妈妈，一个姐姐，一个妹妹，还有一个弟弟。

虽然爸爸妈妈都没有什么书本上的知识，但是他们胜在对人生的道理很懂，

真的很感恩他们教会我很多事情。

尤其是妈妈，她在我小的时候已经在灌输我对人生该存有的信念。

例如像是，做人要独立，不能单靠别人，很多事情要靠自己。

还有很多生活上的知识，比如说：在KFC点鸡腿要说drumstick，人生的11岁，21岁，31岁，41岁（以此类推）是很重要的一年，等等。

还记得我在读小学的时候，每当放学都没得直接回家，因为妈妈担心我跟姐姐自己在家会危险，所以我们几乎都是跟爸爸妈妈在店铺里面度过童年。

店铺楼上有两间小房间，一间是放杂物的，另一间是给我跟姐姐做功课和睡觉的。

墙壁上都黏着世界地图，我很记得我跟姐姐每天在背地图的时候。哈哈！

这帮助了我小学的地方研究和Geography都考得还不错呢！:DDD

生长在小康之家的我，虽然不愁吃和穿，但是我很记得爸爸妈妈怎样用汗水和泪水把这一切一切给换回来的。

:')

以前叛逆期的时候，我很没脑。

时常埋怨爸爸的严肃和妈妈的管教过严，但其实他们都是为了我好。*Sob sob*

我知错了，真的知道错！:((( !

19岁，已经不再pok pok脆了。:(

爱情路上经历很多，因为我早熟。AHAHAHAHA! WTF. -.-

初恋在Form 1年尾。我的天！那才13岁耶！

算，其实我只记得他的名字，至于我们经历过什么，我几乎都忘了。

那时都嘛不认真！-.-

你不要告诉我说你记得你13岁的时候做过什么咯。哈哈！

好啦，no offense，我是个健忘的人。-.-

不认真的时候，真的很不认真。

做过的错事太多，现在回想起来，真的很恶心。恶心到我想巴自己一巴掌。

算啦，童年嘛。-.-

妈的，什么恶心的童年。

过去遇过的男生有很多种，呃我的意思是性格都很不同。

他们都教会我很多。至少对爱情的观念也不再那么的执着，毕竟每段经历都很不同。

对不一样的人不能作比较咯。

虽然我有时还是会想念D，但是都知道这些事过去式。

W也是，分分合合很多次，最后他选择逃避，我选择退出。

对H很奇怪。我不懂这是不甘愿还是什么，就是什么都不清不楚咯。

已经很累了。

现在只想好好读书，规划将来的路该怎么走。

酒店管理，真的是我要的吗？

看太多《酒店风云》，结果选择了这条路。

很累，很累，但是有时候会开心啦！

矛盾。

Degree要去哪里读？我决定不了。

妈妈叫我深思熟虑，因为一旦决定了就得坚持下去。

2年，说长不长，说短不短。

怎么办？

T__________________________________T

他们在我的人生里扮演着很重要的角色。

真的！朋友是不可缺少的。

俗语都有在说：出外靠朋友。

因为他们，所以我的中学过得很棒！:D

但我觉得我们还可以在更疯狂一点。哈哈哈！

无聊的自述一篇。哈哈。

好啦！你自由了，结束。

-Nothing-

Got emo lately.

Don't ask for reasons, cuz I don't know.

My ex told me before, he hates that I always say I don't know why I'm emo ing.

Sometimes humans are like that, I just want you to cheer me up no matter what.

But well, not all people understands that, same goes to me, I'm not perfect.

Listen to Stupid Liar - I'm so stupid, I'm so stupid, I'm so stupid !

T_____________________T

I feel like crying again.

I miss him.

***

Every girls has a not-boyfie-male-friend. It simply means a friend who is super close to you but he's not your boyfriend, right?

I do have.

The first person who I think of is J - a person who I like yet hate.

We're almost in the level of flirtationship, but uhmm, we don't flirt, in fact we're just friends.

I won't tell him that I miss him, I will just whatsapp him when I miss him.

He won't tell me he miss me too, he'll just says that he wanna see me.

When he doesn't reply, I won't get angry cuz he does not have the responsible to reply me since he's not my boyfriend.

When I don't reply him, he knows something's wrong.

And he hates that I say 'bye' to him, he takes this serious and I think he's cute. Lol.

Tried before that I accidentally 'bye' him, we ended up in cold war for few days.

Until he found me back and asked, how long did our war will last? And he asked whether I miss him.

We used to whatsapp with only few words, everything just simple.

We went to Big Bang concert together, and Stage after that.

I miss the face he showed that he's worrying me. :DDD !

很久没有人这样看着我了。Hahahahahaha.

The only one who willing to accompany me at 6am in the morning cuz I got drunk after club and cried like no body business at the roadside. :'(

Love the way he cares, lovely one. :')

Favourite conversation between me and him.

1
He hugged me so tight and kissed my forehead when I'm crying.
Him: Do you think that we'll like this after you get a boyfriend?
Me: Of course I won't after I get a boyfriend. Wtf. How about you den?
Him: Uhmm, I will have to ask my girlfriend first den.
Then we both start laughing like shit. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Brainless kia. -.-

2
Him: Where are you?
Me: In your heart.
Him: Don't flirt me, later my heart moves.
Me: Yuan lai I'm such a 'affective' girl to you. :D
Him: Yes you are. 
Awwwww! Sweet. ♥ 

When he cools, he meant it; when he cares; he meant it too.

Hard to understand this boy but I like him. Hahahahaha! -.-

他，是个什么都不是的人。

不是男朋友，不是普通朋友，不是家人，不是普通同学，不是好朋友，什么都不是。

P/s: Do you know why I blog about J in a sudden? 

Cuz someone asked me secretly via Twitter dm, who is J actually? Lol. Here is the answer. :)

Aloha November!

Aloha November! :D

Just a random short post for today cuz Imma rushing to bed now. D;

So lifeless recently due to having internship and I've to work for 6 days a week and my off day isn't on Sunday!!! T_____T

Well, keep telling myself that all these shits will end soon, soon, just soon!

Life goes on, right? :)

Random tweets from Twitter always can cheer me up.

That's the reason why I love Twitter! Teehee. ;D

Saw this today, meaningful one!

People change, feelings fade, heart broken, friends leave, friends become enemies, lovers become strangers, you’ll be judged, life goes on.

Why so serious?

C'mon girl, c'mon boy, c'mon c'mon get your crayon crayon!

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Big Bang fever still. In need of someone to send me to ICU.

Help meeeeeee! Lol.

Trying my best to cheer up myself, like always, but somehow I just failed.

When I've got nothing to do, I'll think; when I think, I'll cry.

T_____T

Tearing is tiring.

I just don't get it why a person can just walk into my life and then walk out as he likes?

Hello! It's my life okay?! Who the hell are you?

Did I say to let you go?

:'(

How dare you left me like that?

Sigh. Big sigh.

Anyway, will be fine soon. Sorry for being emo on the first day of November.

JIA YOU EVERYONE!

:D

#addiction