Night.

The night is silent, no noise, no everything.

Listening to ma favourite songs, it smooth-en my mood. Love like this. :')

Guess what? Finally, I had my decision. Is it the reason why I feel so much better after I decided? Maybe.

The first time, I type this long to him. I wanted to tell everything, but I couldn't.

Words ain't enough to express my feelings. It's more than that, seriously.

Hey boy, seriously I have so much to tell you. I know you're having your hard time right now. Family, studies, and decisions have to be made and it's really hard for you. Honestly I'm stalking you everyday, wanted to know where have you been and what'cha doing. I miss you, I miss us.  Missing how we used to call each other babe everyday. Not going to give you pressure cuz I know it's enough. Just wish that you're fine and things will go easier after all these. Even though I don't know what's going on, why you ignored me after you told me that you want a longer relationship with me, well, I believe in you, you just need time. I'll wait, wait until the day you back to me. Just to let you know I'm always here when you need someone. Iloveyou. 

Been thinking, how's our life going to be after you go to kampar to study? maybe you'll have new gf there? I don't want to think what will happen after that, I'm afraid.

Anyway, this is ain't a issue for now. Think wisely what you going to choose for your future kay? 3 years to face it, not a long time, but not a short period as well. Once you've decided, you'll have to be brave to face it. Not only for your parents, for yourself too. It's your time, your future not theirs. Face it, don't escape anymore. You're a man, my man.  Support you no matter how.

I'm serious, this time. I love him.

Not sure I received how many advises and scolds, they asked me to let go.

I just can't, CAN'T.

Like I said, I'll wait. That's it.

I don't care how others look at me nor think of me, I just don't care.

So much to tell you, and most of all goodbye, but I know that you can't hear me any more.

我大晒！

很感谢上天让我认识他们。真的，这就是朋友。

很感谢那千里迢迢的鞋子，我很爱。♥

送鞋子很奇怪，但是我懂你们知道我要，这份心意就够了。

很抱歉让你们久等及饿肚子。:(

真的很谢谢你们特地准备的epic failed surprise steamboat gathering。哈哈！

杨一童小姐真的很不会讲骗话，其实我早就知道了啦！:P

真的很谢谢你们所做的一切一切。

MERCI BEAUCOUP! ♥

P/s: 刚学的法文要派上用场一下。哈哈！

其实那几天的心情都很沉重，不知道怎么了，就心情不好。

一哭就嚎啕大哭，真的连笑都笑不出的沉重。

情绪化这该死的病一直死缠烂打，我都快疯了。

一星期的假期，看似很充实，但其实回想起来，我只记得我去了好多次夜蒲。-.-

每一次，都哭着回家。:'(

在Bff面前不敢哭，只有在车上偷偷的流泪。真的很辛苦。:'(

不想让人家担心，但是每一次都失败。他妈的。

不去了，很累。

他曾经说过他很不喜欢我去夜蒲，但是我很任性。

每次都要去，还要理所当然地去。:(

感觉得到他的不喜欢，但是我却不放在心上。

想到这里，我就讨厌自己起来。

我，不去了。

-17082012-

放假第一天，就去了新开张的Aquasonic。不好玩啦！

那天还要哭得像只鬼，还要凌晨四点钟被遗弃在金字塔里的停车场狂吐。;(

那天第一次与她见面，Selina Lee。♥

我们很好聊，因为都是同类人。哈哈。

第二天的凌晨，我就去了槟城。

第一次与大伙儿坐车去旅行。:D

真的很精疲力尽的一趟旅程。看我们都变成僵尸样就知道了。

难为了驾车的，塞了好久好久。:(

我很爱吃这个，超级爱的那种。

走了好多间都卖完了，很失望。

很开心最后买得到，一口气买了5盒。

还以为会买太多，结果不够分。他妈的。;(

很失望的是，我有预了他的份。结果他说他不喜欢吃。

他妈的！就收下不行吗？气死。;(((

结果我把原本给他的给了Mr.J，他跟我一样很爱吃！:DDD

槟城，很多美食的城市。

但是千万不要在公共假期去。;(

星期二去了Yangyang Hew的生日趴。

我不知道他的华语名是什么。-____-

八月的，生日快乐啦！;)

生日前夕，又去了夜蒲，还去了两间。

米粉小姐说她想在回去上课前去最后一次，然后我们就去了。

很不好的经历。真的不想再去了。:'(

无论如何，还是谢谢所有的生日祝福。♥

凌晨12点的时候，我收到他的whatsapp。

我想打电话给他的，真的很想，但是最后还是没打。

:(((

真的很不想就这样结束，真的不想。

很爱每一份生日礼物。

今年，给自己买了支香水。明年，我要自己给自己买个名牌包。

心里要说的不止是这些，但是我想睡觉了。

所以，晚安啦！

Ringtone ♥

19 soon.

2 days after, it's the day.

Told myself not to expect anything, real tired on disappointments.

Like really, I always disappointed. :(

Will I join the clubbing session on the eve?

Frankly I don't feel like passing my night in the club.

People get drunk and vomit everywhere, kissing with strangers and hugging the one who I don't even know what's his name?

Oh please, that's not the life! No way. :(

At the same time I'm scare that I'll be home alone on the night, dilemma kills.

Who doesn't want a special birthday? Hais.

Happy birthday to me, in advance. ♥

Getting old, wth.


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大家好！不知不觉，今天已经星期三了。

假期，就这样过了四天。真快呀！

最近，头脑变得好不灵活。真不知道怎么了。

人称的STML竟然发生在我身上，惨了！:(

stml = short term memory lost

什么都忘了，什么都记不起来。

开心的事记不起，但是伤心的事情却历历在目。很辛苦。:'(

其实，我现在在哭。泪流在键盘上，毫无原因。他妈的。

一直在很努力地听Gangnam Style来调整自己的心情，真他妈的失败。

我知道你们都不想读我的emo帖子啦。

很抱歉，但我的心情真的很低落，低落得想死。:'(

文不切题的一篇文章。-.-

正在与Jason闲聊，他叫我跟他一起转校，一起去英国读书。

其实，有在考虑。超级想离开这个令人伤心的地方。

但，我会想家。:'(

我很失败。失败的blogger!

以前每次都会把看了的电影给记录下来，然后告诉大家好不好看，推不推荐什么的。

现在，我几乎都忘了我看了什么电影。

幸亏我有手机电影票的习惯，翻回电影票我才知道原来我missed了三部电影。

就连快下映了的Spiderman我都还没po，除了失败我真的不知道该怎么形容自己。

还有Step Up Revolution和Expendables 2。

假期呀！其实我去了一趟槟城。这趟旅行说实在的我真的很不开心。

不是朋友们的关系啦，是因为自己的情绪处理得很不好。

该死的。

凌晨三点钟，我想睡了。

晚安。

MusicOfTheDay

妈妈。

When it knocks you down, just get back up...

我有个很爱我的妈妈，那个教会我跌倒了要爬起来的妈妈。♥

以前还小，很不会想，一直只会埋怨妈妈的不足。

妈妈的管教，是关心，也是保护，而我就会把她当成严厉和过分管教。

甚至还一直在内心里很讨厌很讨厌妈妈。

想再想起来，还真的想掌自己巴掌。

虽然如此，妈妈从来没有放弃过我。

尽管自己躲在房间里流泪，也没有放弃过一直爱顶嘴的我。

还记得有一次凌晨深夜，我还没回家，妈妈打了超过50通电话给我，我没接...

当我回到家的时候，妈妈忍受不住，泪流满面，哽咽得说不出话。

那时我才知道，妈妈打电话给我不是想催我回家，而只是想知道我安不安全。:'(

我有个叫权的朋友，他很讨厌我，因为他觉得我很不孝。

他问我，为什么你那么不喜欢你的妈妈？

其实并没有不喜欢，只是被叛逆被蒙蔽了眼睛。我知错了。

每次想到妈妈，我都很想哭。有太多太多的话想对她说，只是每次见面都说不出口。

世界上最懂我的人，就是她。♥

妈妈很懂我，她知道我现在住外面，消费自然变高。

每次都会偷偷地把零用钱放在桌子上，不会正面给我。

她知道我需要什么，她就会买给我。我告诉她，为了一个熨斗，我爬了几层楼梯。

第二天她就买了个熨斗和熨衣架给我带去宿舍。:'(

当兵的时候，妈妈是那个坚持每个礼拜来看我的人。

就算是不会路，她也要来；爸爸不能来，她也要来。:'(

即将与友人到槟城去。我打了通电话告诉她我要去玩，她回答的是，这个礼拜记得早点回家，早点回家拿钱。

心里顿时的心情不仅仅是感动，我发誓我以后一定会赚很多很多前来孝敬她。

刚失恋的心情很不好，但是一想到我妈，我就觉得我比世界上任何一个人都来的幸福。

才发现我跟妈妈的合照真的少之又少，回家要跟妈妈多拍照！

N年前。♥

剖白。

说起来，我真的还发现自己似乎不见了。

以前总爱吃东西的我，现在竟然可以吃了一碗鸡丝河粉就撑个24小时。

以前总爱疯狂血拼的我，现在在广场内走了三小时就喊累。

以前说话总是不顾形象有说有笑，现在就连说话前也三思好久。

压抑了好久，情绪似乎把我给改变了。

流泪的日子好难过。真不知道自己在哭些什么。

这种把音乐开得大大声然后抱着枕头痛哭的日子到底还需要过多久？:'(

每次都有好多话想说，但是找个真正想听的人真的超难。

跟朋友说，竟然被嫌弃只有我在讲，别人在听。

跟妈妈说，妈妈说我自己拿来烦。

跟Mr.Leong说，每次都只会顶我嘴再不然就是不回复。

我只好跟部落格说了。:'(

学业上的压力真的不是盖的。

与同学们的相处越来越不融洽，居心叵测啊！

每天拖着疲累的身子放学还要在马路上堵车堵上小时才能回到家。

真的好累。

脱发症不知道有没有变得更严重了。

wOter.

Everyone needs wOter.

Halo peepo, this post is actually all about my Sales & Marketing assignment. 

I wanted to have a record on what I've done for it, as part of memories. Lol.

So yeah, you guys can just skip it, I don't mind. :P

But only for this post ya! Lol.

A very very tough assignment has been given by our Sales & Marketing lecturer.

All of us were thinking what to use as the product of our company, it took like 3 weeks of us to get approval from le lecturer. :(

At last, we decided to do wOter.

We have 4 people in a group, while others have about 5 to 6. -.-

Ching, Xuan, Me, and Asel.

Anyway it doesn't matter, let's talk about our wOter! :)

Ching came out with an idea under my inspiring on what people need the most, WATER.

And I came out with the brand name by using wOter instead of original word - water.

So yeah, wOter Sdn. Bhd. is produced.

WOter logo is pretty cute, like the designer ME! Ahahahahaha.

Thank god my groupmates like it, and we decided to use it. :D

Create the bottle label by using the label is effing tiring.

Include all the mineral contents, manufacture address, volume of wOter for different types of bottle into the label already spent half of my day. :(

Drove all the way to Kajang town to get the small paper cups for wOter testing purpose during presentation.

And you know what, I jammed there for hours. -____-

I spent my Saturday with all these shits which completely ruined my mood. Dafuq.

Well, my effort paid off! I found small paper cups in Tesco Kajang at the end.

The feeling is like mission completed. Thanks le sister for accompany me. :)

We actually planned to do our powerpoint slides on Monday during after class.

Who knows our presentation is actually on MONDAY and freak all of us outta ass. ;(

Rushed back to Subang area to meet up with my groupmates and complete it until late night yesterday.

Fml.

And because of this I missed the dinner with him. Wrong timing always huh? -.-

Ching, Xuan and me were doing the written report and powerpoint slides where Asel doesn't help anything. 

I do really angry about her but no choice, she was in our group! Urgh.

Whatever. ;(

Super nervous today. Do you understand the feelings when all the classmates are wearing full formal attire included blazer and tied hair?

It's like walking into court, all become lawyer. Haha.

The only moment when we all are united. :DDD

Last min decision to open a Facebook page for wOter and keep on sharing and asking people to like is fun.

All of us were like playing share, once it increased we felt happy and excited. LOL.

Thank you all my friends for helping me to like the page, and lecturer even laugh at us by looking on the profile pictures that we had. Ahaha.

The scariest presentation in Term 4, hard work must paid off!

THANK GOD IT PASSED. :')

Coming Thursday, another presentation to go.

Mid-term week is tiring. Good luck Pling Chee!

_Music of the day_

I thought.

I thought I forget him.

Being so happy and relax these few days, I thought I already let go.

Just realized that actually I'm not, I acted like I don't care but eventually how I wish I could tell him I do care when saw him just now. :'(

Uncontrollable again. Teared. :'(

Please stop all these. Please.

He gave me hopes, I put on hopes, then he left again.

Seriously? :(

Enough le.

Words.

New love.

The lyrics show what I'm feeling right now. :'(

So many questions But I'm talking to myself

I know that you can't hear me any more Not anymore

So much to tell you And most of all goodbye

But I know that you can't hear me any more

Can't stop to think back how it started, it feels like just happened yesterday.

He called cuz of worried, missed and we chatted like no one else in the world.

All these changed, not anymore.

Wanted to tell him what and how I feel, but I chose to keep in heart at the end.

I rather to tell others but not you, he said.

How hurtful it is to hear this from the one you loved.

Still, I don't know what's wrong between us. :'(

Got consultations from few of le friends.

Mr.J scolded me like an ass, but I do feel that his words do wake me up?

Thanks for the hugs, it's warm.

Mr.Leong tried so hard to cheer me up, I know he did his best.

I'm sorry for releasing my emotional on you, sorry.

Mifen, the one who most effective on cheering me up. Thank you.

Will keep your words and listen to it.

And others, love y'all.

Couldn't count how many time I told myself to let go, this time, it's a must-do.

Mid-term coming soon, time for study and leave the past.

Screw the assignments and tests!

Cava bien, merci. ♥

A week past.

I thought I would let go. I thought I would...

Told myself to give up. I didn't realize this is so hard, so hard...

Wtf?! Why am I dropping tears right now? :'(

A week had past. 8 days ago, I said to separate, he didn't response any.

Told myself N times to forget this man, the one who doesn't care about me anymore.

But why I find it is so hard? Really. :'(

He lives happily without me, but I'm shedding tears here.

I know YOU, the one who reading this, will feel like slapping me so hard.

Why should I live in past? WHYY?

I don't know, all I know is, I love him. :'(

Read back the old texts, flip back the photos we took together, think back the place we went together... :'(

I can't let go still.

Brain, please control me. T___T

August ♥

YOU. ME. US.

 #hurtsobad

Hi people. Hi August. So, a brand new month is started.

SAY ALOHA TO ALL THE AUGUST BABIESSS! ♥

I'm one of 'em. Heheheheee! :D

Behaved like a zombie these few days.

Mood totally affected and I even lost my appetite until I only ate a box of instant fried mihun until my day ended. -.-

Sorry tummy, I broke my promises again. :'(

Lau Pling Chee, never improved herself. Such a failed bitch who always cry nonstop cuz of a man.

Refused to know everything about him, I ignored. Again, failed.

He found me back last night, with normal convo, but I feel that he actually cares.

I wanted to ignore him like he did, but I couldn't. :'(

Today, we had a convo again. I asked again cuz I'm confused.

Why would we break up?

He refused to answer, just threw me a short sentence, "hard question" !

Hahahaa. Why am I still putting hope on a guy who doesn't dare to face everything?

Even just me, he hides.

I'm sorry I don't want to start my first post in August with all these emo mood. :/

Don't worry, be happy! That's what my friends tell me always. :')

Glad to have them to support me. ♥

HAPPY AUGUST ♥