Summer.

Hi readers. *not sure if I still have any though. :(*
Been abandoned my blog for months and I finally decided to blog again.
Hating myself for being this lazy but you know I still love blogging anyhow. Xx

Yes, as mentioned from the image above, I am back, back to Malaysia! :D
Actually I was quite exciting due to several reasons as I finally could meet up my family, boyfriend, and friends, get to eat good and cheap food which doesn't even exist in UK, get to wear nice clothes and etc.
But I haven't felt any excitement now since the moment I touched down in my homeland, why? :(
DUE TO F*CKING JETLAG OMG. D;

Couldn't get into sleep during midnight and been sleeping for whole afternoon. Wtf?
Wasting my days in Malaysia just like that? Tell me I am just kidding. :/

I wouldn't deny that I miss UK already, mostly because of the weather.
Summer in UK is really nice and comfortable. It's like finally I get to wear short pants to go outside.
People started to jog and spend their time mostly in outdoor. How nice that is!

Honestly I love UK people if to compare to Malaysians. No offense but honestly speaking.
It's all about how they behave. Uk people are gentlemen, they tolerant and polite where I feel most of the Malaysians are behaving adversely.
Let's talk about an experience of mine in my plane ride home.
There was a man who wanted to get his baggages out from the cabin above where everyone in front of him was leaving the plane contionuously. He actually blocked the whole way out without being considerate to others who were rushing for their next flight.
Please be considerate to others I would say.

Anyway, I still feel good to be home cuz this is always where I belong to.
Can't wait to spend my time in Malaysia! :D
Date me out peeps!!

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It has been 183 days that I stay in UK.

I do counts, I have a thing about days of doing something.

It started since young, without reasons.

I read blogs when I am bored, or when I need inspirations.

I love reading, I go through every single word, cuz I think words are beautiful.

Read a post just now and it makes me feeling a lil down - about long distance relationships.

1 year and 8 months relationship.

1 year of being together, 8 months of being apart.

We didn't survive our long distance relationship.

We broke it off 2 months ago.

He found someone new, I'm stuck with moving on.

#You feel like shit when you know that he or she no longer misses you.

Love is getting fragile, it changes too fast, how scary.

I don't know how I handle my long distance relationship, if you asked me, I will answer you with only one word - TRUST.

You have to trust your partner.

Yes, you might get hurt if you trust, but when it is the only thing you can do, you've no choice.

Frankly, I really hate texting all the time with him.

Especially when he is the emotion-less type, he seldom laugh, seldom smile, seldom shows his emotion.

His replies are mostly covering one word, a dot, or neither an emoticon.

I get tired of thinking topic to text with him.

Most of the time I just do my stuffs and reply him when I think of something to tell.

We seldom skype. Skype is one of the most common thing of LDR couples.

But strangely, we don't usually do it.

Even if we do, we less talk. I don't know why.

I love to skype, so much, it's the most convinient way to feel closest to the one who is miles away from me.

I used to do it with my friends, most of my friends.

We talk shits, update life, gossips, speak about problems, discuss about games, play flappy bird together, listen to favourite songs and rap together etc etc.

But I don't do my favourite stuffs with my boyfriend. How strange.

Every time when I think of this, I feel sad.

No more morning greets, and it's okay for me.

Time will heal, I believe.

Studying in le Royaume-Uni.

Good evening readers.

Not too sure if I still have readers but if you are reading this, THANK YOU for not giving up on me!!! :')))

It's 10.25pm now in UK where Malaysia is already 6 in the morning.

I miss home, wouldn't feel bored repeating this phrase, seriously.

As title mentioned, today's post is all about my studies in UK.

I am progressing my bachelor's degree semester 2 now. One word to describe, TOUGH.

Yeah, I had the thought of giving up, but then I decided not to when I thought about my parents.

It was a serious downhill I can say, when no one understands your feelings, and they ain't putting themselves into my shoes. The most F moment. :'(

It's okay.

Honestly, I learnt alot. Learnt how to be strong when there's no people helps you.

I always tell myself that it's okay if you don't give a damn on me, cuz everyone is selfish, it's a fact.

Especially when you're studying abroad where people around you don't have the obligation to care on you,

you have to be strong or you die.

I can't count how many teary nights I've been through.

I can't count how much hair I've lost due to overstress.

I can't count how much thoughts I actually keep it all to myself.

The world is cruel.

I always jealous on my friends around me.

They always have someone who always solve problems for them.

They need no to work harder because money is always in their pockets.

我只能说，是命运。

Currently I am planning for a function which more or less similar to the one I did in taylors a year ago.

I am the co-ordinator of my group which means the function is all under my control.

I have to deal with the entertainers in order to get them to sign on a contract that basically written by me. -.-

I have to make sure my teammates are actually doing their roles.

I have to speak alot ENGLISH which isn't my mother language and most of the ang moh couldn't understand me but still, I need to speak to them until they get me.  #superstress

I have to do alot of paper works as there will be a planning report need to be submitted 2 weeks later.

I need to prove what I have done each week and present to the lecturers and tell them how far my team has progressed.

When all these strike on you, frankly I don't have the power to manage. 

Even though the lecturers always giving me positive comments, but still, I don't know.

I left only 1 week for my tickets to sell, to get 70 covers to attend to my function. #fuckthisshitiaintgonnamakeitwtf

Plus, I am taking French class now.

It is so hard for me to learn another language when I can't even use my english properly.

Do you get what I mean?

It is not easy to pursue your studies away from your hometown.

我已经不知道我可以做些什么了。

夜晚。

夜晚显得特别宁静，宁静的时候会想很多。
来英国快半年了，说还不习惯，也不是；说习惯了，也不算是。很矛盾吧？

这学期过得很压力。脱发的问题更显得严重，严重到我真的害怕起来。
很多事情都得突破自己的范围去完成，很多事情得自己亲历亲为去做，
一个人得分身做很多个岗位，我真的很累。
现在真的会在收到email的那分钟害怕起来，害怕的是会因为我错误的决定给把事情砸了。
我不知道可以向谁倾诉。
外人不会了解，都只会愚昧地说，这就是学生的责任啊，放多一点心机啦，花多一点时间之类的话。
你们不懂。

已经连续四天是被电话声给吵醒，因为大家都在为事情在做准备。
根本没办法睡个好觉。
好累，好累。

好久都没跟妈妈视讯了，我好想家。

哭，已经变得很麻木。
很多时候，听着听着熟悉的歌曲也能哭。好讨厌这样的自己。

男朋友每次说我有overthinking的坏习惯。确实。
或许是不安全感吧？从来不被认可所以会不安全感。
想要寄个明信片给他也不行。很无助。
只好把自己想跟他说的话都写在纸上然后收在抽屉里。很sad。
他从来不会po我们的合照。
我好羡慕那个曾经出现在他instagram上面的那个女生，打从心底里羡慕。

啊，那个谁结婚了！
好想邀出席他的婚礼哦，以前说好了一定会请彼此去彼此的婚礼，很可惜，我人在英国。:(
前几天有跟他小聊了一下，好怀念我们以前打打闹闹的日子。
这么快就当爸了，好高兴哦！
是很衷心地为他感到开心，还答应了一定会给他红包里放英镑。哈哈哈！

看了来自星星的你结局篇，哭惨了。
哭的原因不是因为剧情很伤感，而是因为我很了解千颂伊的感觉。
当都敏俊离开的那一刻，我想起男朋友回家的前一天，那种会哭得歇斯底里的感觉，不是说要控制就控制的了。
最重要的是，能相处的时间真的很短，所以会额外的珍惜。这是真的。

Double Valentine's 2014.

First of all, Happy Valentine's Day to everyone.
Stay sweet with your love one for those who are attached, and for those who are single, be patient to wait for your right one, trust me everything is just the matter of time. :)

It's been a while since the previous post. I lost my inspiration to blog I don't know why.
Bare with me kay. Lots of loves.

Frankly, I'm tearing now. Yeah, in a bad mood.
Even though it's valentine's day, but I spent my day on arguing with my boyfriend.
Erm, I shouldn't say it was an arguement, it's just, we both got different thoughts on each other maybe?
Yes, we didn't skype on valentine's, we didn't get to see each other, I wished him happy valentine's day but he didn't, we didn't sweet talk, we didn't say blessing words, we didn't do anything, what we did was, whatsapp about our different opinions.

I don't know how I should take this but, it shouldn't happened on a Valentine's Day, at least.

I don't demand much usually, cuz I know he is not the romantic type of person since the first day I met him.
But at least, don't make me feel lonely, especially we're dealing with LDR, and it's our first Valentine's together.
The suckest part is, I got no friends here who can talk to me on a Valentine's Day.
I do it all to my blanket and pillow, wtf?
Am I too greedy to have sweet words, appreciation, or just some efforts to show me his love?
I don't wish to have roses, branded presents or whatsoever stuffs, I just want to feel some warmth from the one I care. Is it too much? I don't know. :'(

Been crying too much today, I hate myself for being so emotional.
What for I crying this much? No one seems to give a damn, none.
I started to feel helpless on us, I doubt on myself if I can handle LDR well. I'm not sure anymore.

I thought you'll feel the same as me that today is meaningful cuz it's our first Valentine's together.
I thought you'll find it touching to share your thoughts with me on how hard we got together.
I thought you'll tell me how you appreciate to be with me even though the moment we can be together is short.
Everything, is just my own thoughts.
原来一切都只是我想太多。

I wrote him a letter, only get to pass to him on July, if everything is still alright.

Water drinking.

Today post is all about my water drinking habit. I don't know why I have the feeling to blog about it but my brain just told me to. Lol.

I was used to hate drinking water, you know, cuz it's tasteless, boring and yes, as how you can see it from its appearance.

Previously, it was hardly for me to finish drinking a big bottle of 1 litre of water that my mom prepared for me to bring it to school daily. 

I was so sick when I saw that big bottle, I just hate it, without reason.

I only consume more or less 500ml of water daily. I just ignore what my parents told me about 8 glasses of water (2L) is a must for a person, I thought those were bullshits. -.-

Until I started to realize, my skin is getting dry day by day, not only that, it even cracked easily in a sudden.

Slowly this happened to my heels, it cracked and it took a freaking long time to heal and it cracked again after few days. I don't know why it happened but it just did.

Then I met a girl, who is my lifestyle teacher, I call her Jess. 

Jess told me that my body is lacked of water, for years.

She can just tell me from the minute she saw me.

Jess: Girl, did you drink water today?

Me: Hmmm, yeah?

Jess: I mean, alot of water, you didn't even achieve 1L yet, right?

Me: How did you know?

Jess: I saw it from your face, and your skin.

I took her words, seriously. She changed my lifestyle, she made me a healthier person.

Frankly it took some months for me to start drinking, water.

From 500ml perday, 750ml per day, 1L per day, and now, 3.5L per day.

There's an effort needed, and I tried, and the changes proved me.

Less constipation, skin gets smoother, feeling more energetic, and surprisingly, I lose weight! 

Water is a natural calorie-burner. You may have heard that sipping ice water is a good way to burn calories and help you lose weight. 

Although this isn't necessarily true for everyone, it has a large amount of truth behind it. 

When you drink cold water, your body needs to work double time to warm up, increasing the rate your metabolism burns up calories.

One of the best benefits of drinking water is that it acts as a natural cleanser. 

Your body attracts many toxins, from food, the environment and other elements. 

Cleaning it out consistently will help keep it healthy and functioning well. 

There was once a classmate told me stop drinking that much of water, it causes me into edema. In chinese，水腫。

I would like to say, no, you are wrong.

A proper way of drinking water will not cause you into edema. In fact, you need to be smart of drinking water everyday.

It is not about you consume 3L of water in 24 hours and that's it.

NO, YOU ARE TOTALLY WRONG.

We are all taught that drinking eight cups or two litres of water a day is longstanding advice.

For us, Malaysians, we need much more than that I can say to keep our body hydrate. There is climate influences, the weather is too hot.

During our sleeps, 500ml of water will run off automatically when we breath.

Therefore, drinking a 3L water is super normal that WILL NOT cause me into edema.

Drinking a glass of water after you wake up from bed helps in hydrate and wake your organs for a fresh day start.

Stop drinking a lot of water after 9pm to avoid edema and times of visit toilet during your sleeps.

Start drinking water today! Just water, not anything else. :)

P/s: Subjective to different individuals.

Paris • le troisième et le quatrième jour

从小的其中一个愿望，就是把世界上的全部迪士尼给去一遍。

三年前跟家人去过了香港的迪士尼，2013年，我跟男朋友去了法国的。:D

其实这次去法国最最最主要的就是一定要去到迪士尼，还没买票之前，我询问了男朋友的意见，他有一度不想去还问我是不是还小。他妈的无趣。-.-

然后我就说，那你在门口等我，我自己去。-____-

最后当然还是我赢啦。嘿嘿

入门票，我是跟旅行社订的，其实我很担心会拿不到预定的票，因为他给我confirmation letter全部都很简单，好像很不靠谱。

但事实证明我的担心是多余的。

去迪士尼的路程有点复杂。普通的地铁metro是去不了，得转搭快线列车(RER)才能来到这一站 Gare de Marne la Vallée Chessy 来到法国迪士尼。

排队取票去。

我们的票价是 €68 一人。(1 day/ 2 parks)

2 parks 的意思就是Disneyland® 和 Walt Disney Studios。

所以确定要去的话还是上网订购或者通过旅行社买会便宜很多哦！;)

售票员递给我们地图后还会很细心地跟我们讲解当天会有什么表演。

但是我们都没听懂法国式的英文。-.-

我们什么都没玩，只是坐了这个小小世界。-.-

我上次去香港也只坐了这个。难道是命水？:O

我不是Walt Disney的粉丝，但是既然来到了当然有杀错无放过啦！

个人觉得这个可以整个忽略掉因为根本没有什么可看的啊。

我也不知道为什么我这么爱乱拍也只拍了两张在Walt Disney的照片。-.-

然后我们就待到晚上精彩的烟花表演。

我告诉你吧，迪斯尼的烟花秀是不可以错过的！

就这样，巴黎迪斯尼的旅程就结束了。

第四天，我们去了著名的老佛爷百货 Galeries Lafayette。

其实我很想买个包，但是带的钱实在是不够。T.T

真遗憾！！！

但是还是买到人人都爱的Ladurée macaroons! :D

我跟你说，这个跟KL的根本是天渊之别比不了！！！

巧克力味真的太好吃了。言语无法形容。

但是也贵惨。花了差不多100欧在买macaroons。:OOO

长达4天3夜的法国之旅就这样结束了。

最令我流连忘返的，就是他们的热巧克力，超级无敌好喝！！！

还有甜品，超级无敌好吃！

Paris • le premier et le deuxième jour

哈咯。这篇文章主要是围绕在我和他到巴黎的四天三夜游的第一和第二天。

基本法文会一点点，所以标题要秀一秀。哈哈哈！

为了这趟旅行，我准备了超级多东西耶！也算是突破自己的一步啦。

从来没有自己一个人handle这么多东西。从最基本的订酒店和火车票，到规划行程统统都我在搞定。小小成就感是有啦，呵呵！

我们乘搭了欧洲很著名的穿越海底隧道的eurostar火车从伦敦直达法国。

不会久哦，大约才两个小时的车程。

到了法国巴黎真的是很震撼，从小就很希望去到的一个地方，真的来到了。:D

巴黎车站Gare Du Nord是一个很繁忙的车站，因为它是一个国际型车站。

去英国和德国的火车都可以在这里坐得到。

在欧洲搭火车旅游真的很方便，当然，火车票时有一点小贵啦。

第一天到达的时候已经是接近黄昏了，而且我们不熟当地路线该怎么走，只好从车站搭了德士取到了酒店。

其实我在家里做了research，我们的酒店离车站并不远，但是德士司机却带我们兜路并charge了我们40欧(马弊160左右)。心痛死！D;

算了，我们就入住了酒店，然后随意在附近吃了快餐就休息，准备明天早上出发观光我所编排好的行程。

法国肯德基好贵，而且选择超级少。哎

第二天在酒店吃了早餐后，我们询问了酒店柜员我们的第一站 - 巴黎铁塔的地铁(metro)该怎么去然后就浩浩荡荡的出发了。

拿着地铁图和路线图的感觉好好噢，有那种自食其力的感觉。嘿嘿

这就是我们手上的地铁图。很复杂吧？

但是其实很简单，你只需要知道你要去哪一站，然后依颜色路线去就行了。

巴黎铁塔的那一站就叫做Trocadéro，路线是metro 9绿黄色的路线。

来到这里要千万小心，因为会有很多黑人在贩卖锁匙圈之类的纪念品。

他们会直接递给你然后要你买，你买了，第二个黑人又会向你走来又叫你买。

我们整整是遇到了这样的黑人，然后叫他帮我们拍照。

这合照值最少3欧元啊！D;

从这里，你可以朝着巴黎铁塔的方向走，走到塔下拍照。

然后可以到Champ de Mars这个公园走走看看，观摩这雄伟的塔。

在这公园里，旅客也必须要非常的小心，因为我们也被骗买了一幅15欧的画。T.T

之后，我就一直吵着要去凯旋门Arc de Triomphe。

我上网查过，从巴黎铁塔可以走路就到凯旋门，所以我就一直吵着男朋友要去那边。嘿嘿

他很笨蛋，竟然不知道凯旋门是什么还一直给我去那些奇怪的名字，什么凯伦门之类的。-.-

有没有人看过马德琳这部卡通啊？

我超级喜欢她噢！就是因为这部卡通我才知道凯旋门的存在。

我一直跟男朋友说马德琳这个事情，他就一直跟我说不知道不知道。D;

我说我要去，他还是会带我去啦。嘻嘻 ❤

摸摸索索问问路人，我们就到达凯旋门啦！

很壮观有没有？

请了别的游客帮我们拍了合影我们又继续往下一个目标前进。

掰掰凯旋门！

我们沿着街道一直走一直走，走到肚子饿了，就随意找了间餐厅吃东西。

法国人的服务态度都很好，尽管我们不会说法语，他们还是很热情地招待我们。

还送了本书给我，还主动帮我们拍照。

我很怕冷，就一直穿着那件让我体型看起来增加了五倍的衣服。D;

吃饱了，我们有随意走走看看，无意间就来到了这里。

我行程里有说到要去Champs-Élysées这条街道，但是一直没找到在哪里所以就算了。

之后才发现原来我们去了凯旋门后走的那条街就是著名的香榭丽舍大街嘛！

不知道这是什么地方，没被归纳在行程里，但是无意间来到了拍照时必须要的！

看了看地图，原来我们来到了Place de la Concorde。

这地方再往内走，就是Jardin des Tuileries，也就是罗浮宫Musée du Louvre前面的一个公园。

我不会欣赏艺术画，而且当时心里一直在想着要去爱情锁桥，所以就没再走进去罗浮宫。

问了问路人锁桥的所在地，然后我们又走了过去。

路途中，我们还看到了翻版的锁桥！！！

我不要翻版的！我要去正版的啦。:(((

然后又继续走...

这艘船很熟悉的感觉！冲上云霄有见过！！*好像是啦哈哈*

迈向目的地...终于找到了！:DDD

很满很满有没有！

我们也买了一把锁锁在上面哦！

很难锁耶，因为整个桥太满了。D;

去了锁桥，我们就打算回酒店了。回家途中，还是经过了一下罗浮宫Musée du Louvre。

总算是没有白来巴黎吧？:P

就这样，我们结束了第二天的行程。

第三天我们去了迪斯尼哦！

Stay tuneddd! ❤