28 May 2013

28052013



今天心情不怎么愉快,所以就像说直接用华语打好了。
华语比较容易抒发情感,会母语好棒!:D

很久没有po自己的自恋照,应该说很久都没有更新了。
真的很愧疚的说,原因是,你懂的啦。我很忙。哈哈哈!

不晓得只是我,还是外面其他的女生也会有像我一样的情况?
最近我发现,我变得很奇怪,非常非常奇怪。

1. 我会无缘无故跑去问男朋友说:“呃,如果有一天我告诉你说我喜欢上别人你会怎样?”
这种白痴话题。 然后他就整个愣住不理我差不多10分钟。-.-

2. 无端端抱头大哭,哭完后冷静了一下,又在大哭。
男朋友是整个傻掉然后狂问我到底怎么了。
其实我自己也不知道我为什么会这样,我觉得我有心理病。-.-

3. 今天,又有另一些怪事。
男朋友跑去跟他朋友吃东西,然后我就在家上网咯。
他一回来然后就从我身后抱着我,我是整个把他推走还不小心把他的头给撞去床头板。
T___________T
我知道是他回来了,但是我就是想把他给推走。-.-

好可怜哦他。:(

我是趁他现在在睡觉,所以偷偷跑来更新部落格。
现在我不是很敢靠近他,深怕自己再度做出一些奇怪的事情然后弄他再受伤。 D;

但是男朋友他没有放弃过我,无论我怎样甩他推他打他砸他,他就是一直要紧紧抱着我然后抚摸我的头说,没事,有他在。:'((((( !

是怎样啦!有谁可以救救我?T__________T



真不懂我在英国的九个月这个大小孩该怎么办?:(

23 May 2013

Currently.

Hello peeps. It has been a long time since my previous post.
I've no idea what's happening right now cuz too much things had happened in these few weeks.
I can't tell 'em all to you, but I will update y'all as much as I can kay?
Loves.

Well, I'm currently staying with my boy now in our new room. 
Okay, actually I'm more likely to call it as hostel but he doesn't like it so yeah, it's our home. -.-

Hmmm, I know that people around who care about me are actually feel that I'm not supposed to get started with J, or things like that.
Yea, I know all of you care of me or trying to protect me from being hurt deeply again and again.
BUT, I've been engaged with this guy for almost 2 years, things happened without notice, I know how it goes and facts proved me that he changed so much.
I knew that he changed, I can feel his heart, I just could.
I will be appreciate that if you are blessing me, sincerely. :')

2 years, not a long period yet ain't short as well.
Uncountable things happened in between, both of us knew it.
He said, 在一起两年了,只是中间我们都有外遇。
Complicated relationship like this ain't fun, honestly speaking.
No matter how I tried to get rid of him, I just failed from head to bottom.
It's not under my control, not. D;

Staying together is not really fun. Maybe I haven't ready for couple life yet, maybe?
Wash clothes together, cook together, sleep together, wake up together, play computer together, everything together. Lol.
Couldn't deny that he has the power to make me happy. He makes me smile like nobody does before. :D
We're more to best friend type, share things to each other, we talk every shits.
Love the way we communicate. Hehee!

Oh ya, I'm applying to further my studies in London, UK.
Finger crossed that everything goes well. I really really wanna go and have new experiences in my life.
J was trying to stop me from studying abroad, but if you know me, nothing is gonna affect my decision once I've decided. Lol.
Thank you dad and mom for supporting me, big loves to them.


One of my favourite song during high school time. #throwback

09 May 2013

09052013


I'm not sure what is the point for putting this pic into black and white.
Just.Wanted.To. So yeah.

I'm going to blog this fast before ma boy comes back from yamcha with his bros. -.-
Yes, we're staying together currently at my place cuz he is homeless now. Lolololl.
No lah, it's just his contract with his landlord had ended and the new room is only available starting from tomorrow so yeah. :/
Omg I'm so scareeee now. I can't let him know about the existance of my blog, NO, NEVER.
He has already conquer my Twitter. (Means that he read all my recent tweets.) #wtf 
I don't know how this happened. T______T

Okay, as I mentioned in Twitter before I started to doubt on my decision.
He saw my tweet and asked me what's wrong and I was like, WHAT?! -.-
He said he doesn't want any secrets between us.
But...but...I need some private spaces oso loh. :(((
Yes, I found he is annoying sometimes, started to miss single life wtf. Slap me please.

I told babe mifen that I slowly realize that he is not the type I want, due to few reasons.
Firstly, he is like a child, a 10-year-old child who needs people to take care of him like 22 hours.
Lol, got 2 hours is he take care of me lah. Ahahahahahaha.

He can washes his clothes 1 week once, put his tapao, cup noodles or rubbish beside his bed and overnight with them, throw everything he doesn't need at the corner of his room, bath only once a day, has breakfast at 5pm when I'm about to have my dinner, and lastly, he doesn't sweep/mop his floor one, NEVER.
Arghhhhhhhh. I did all for him when I was free. Dafuq, tired shit man. D;
And guess what, he sleeps with his laptop every night.
Yes, right beside of his head. -________-

This is not the type I want, not. :/

He has a bad habit, a damn bad one. I won't say it here what it is, but I really wanted to express my unsatisfactory. T________T
He even steals my laptop to do his stuffs when I was busy with my reports and all.
Hey! That's mine eh.
You might ask, he doesn't have a laptop meh?
He does, but I guess his one oso beh tahan him already.
He never shut down one, I never see he shuts down his laptop before. So yeah, his laptop can say is half dead liao de. ;(((
He can checks on his stuffs 24/7 no matter what he is doing, even when he is naked wtf. -.-

Although he is so imperfect, but I love him. #wtf what's wrong with me? D;

Honestly, he changes a lot compare to 1 and a half year before.
Fyi, we started ai mei 1.5 years before. Lol.
But I will afraid of his changes, cuz I feel that it's so unreal.
I told him this heart to heart, he knew it too. I even teared in front of him.
Security feels zero level, seriously. :'(
He asked me to give him 1 more month for him to prove.
Can I trust him again? Can I? :(

Just got his whatsapp that he is drinking now, will only back about 2am.
Yayyy! I can have my pillows for at least 2 hours from now.
Signing off. Ciao. ;D

01 May 2013

May! ♥


Hellooooo to you! A brand new month - May.
Sorry that I haven't been posting any since 8th of April. :(
Was really really busy about my courseworks and stuffs. I can't describe how stressful I am so yeah, just forget it lah.

My classes ain't that pack as previous terms so you may think that what am I busying about?
Final reports PSR are killing all the hospitality students from top to bottom I can say.
We have to prepare 11 reports which contain personal research and mind thinking stuffs like that.
It's really driving me crazy.
Almost 24 hours I was thinking, what should I research for theme A, for theme B and blah blah blah. D;

Oh yea, if you followed me in Twitter, you may already knew this, but still, I wanna say,
I AM FINALLY IN LOVE,
again. Lololololollll.


Took this photo secretly while he was still sleeping. Ahahahahaa! :P
Waking up by your love's side is one of the best damn thing in the world. ♥

Yes, he is J. It's like finally official? I don't know.
I wouldn't say he is my boyfriend, but I won't deny that I love him.

Love the way he holds me...
Love the way he says he loves me... 
Love the way he hugs me... 
Love the way he tickles me...
Love the way he talks to me... 
Love the way he cares me...

Yes, I love this guy, at least, for now.

Can't remember this feeling, long lost one. When someone cares, you can feel the warmth.
I can see his changes for me, obviously one. :')

He waited 1 hour for me to finish my class.
He paid for all the meals for me.
He brought me to korean BBQ when I said I want to eat.
He stopped me from eating chilies like my dad did cuz he wants me to recover faster from my ulcers.
He accompanies me home everytime after the perfume uncle incident happened.
He gave me his unit's key.
And so on...
There isn't anyone care me like he does for such a long period liao. :'D

You might curious that how could I forget those things he did for me last time?
Frankly, I didn't let go, yet.
I did check on his chatbox, whatsapp, texts and etc while he's not around.
I know I shouldn't do so, but girls...you know right. :(
I find nothing suspicious.
I don't know...

Been sticked together with him almost everyday for weeks.
Then here comes a question on my mind to him,
Me: 每天粘在一起不显咩?
Him: 你在讲什么啦
Me: 真的显的话记得跟我讲,我会回家。
Him: 哪里有可能?不要三八。
Me: 我认真。
Him: *hugs* 不要讲废话。你对我显是吗?
Me: ...

I refused to answer him cuz my answer is no, and never. ♥