Flirtationship.

Was thinking to blog in chinese but I'm trying in english now cuz the only way to improve a language is to write more, read more and speak more. 

Anyhow, my english is bad, I know. Gimme some time kay? D;

Holidays had finally ended. Don't fucking ask me how it was, no good nor bad cuz I spent most of my time at home and professional situation reports. ;(

So different than usual. I know I know. :(

It's okay I'm fine with it, needa work extra hard on my courseworks to prepare for my final exams.

No more play play in the class and all. Will not be able to attend any holiday plans, trip for these coming 3 months.

I'm serious. Lolololl.

Went for dinner with J last night.

He is like finally can see me after a week. He only got to have delivery food while I was eating Ippudo ramen, homemade dishes, cream & fudge ice cream, bear paw and else. Ahahahahahaha !

He actually kept on asking me to come back earlier but I can't find any reasons to convince myself to come back to sunway. Not for him, never. -.-

As usual, we will talk about us when we are having our own sweet time. Lol.

I don't know how to describe the feelings, what I can say is, things become simpler when you tell honestly.

I told him a lot, almost everything. Then he replied on each of my statement.

As you know, I always couldn't control my emotion.

When I over think, I tear. When I tear, I cry. Wehn I cry, he scares. Lololololll.

I kept quiet for few minutes when he was playing game. Then suddenly he came to and pull me up and wanna talk to me, something like that la.

Then he saw me tearing, he was like, omg what happened? His voice suddenly went so soft and wen rou. LOL.

He used both of his palms to hold my face and wiped my tears away. *So drama ahahahahaha !*

I just tell nothing, I didn't talk to him. He knew I need time to calm, he just hugged me tight, real tight.

He is so warm, I can feel his heartbeat. :'(

Then I started to tell him what I chat with mifen when I met her up.

Me: I told mifen about you. She knows you.
Him: She knows? What she knows about me?

Me: Things you did to me, how you treated me, and what happened between us. Everything.

Him: What was it? Say in details what you told her.

Me: Neh, Ms.Rose thingy... *he hugged me again, and apologized - sorry.*

I just quiet, then he kept dui bu qi...dui bu qi...

Me: Ya lah ya lah.

Him: I truly apologize to you about that thing. Really dui bu qi. Thank you for staying with me still. 

Me: Ahahahaha. Why you so uncle one? I already said ya lah ya lah woh. But honestly, that thing hurts me deep. :( Okay den next is Ms. TingTing lor...You know girls must share their stories with their friends one. If no share, we will go crazy. Ahahahahahahaha.

Him: You can share with me ma.

Me: You got TingTing then forget me ady lo. Share with you waaa.

Him: Tsk. Don't talk about her anymore kay.

He said he loves me, I love him too. And we both knew it.

The reason why we couldn't get into a relationship is because we are not stable yet, I mean we still in youngster stage where like to play around, flirt with others and stuffs like that.

So yeah, we just know that if we start our relationship now, break up will be our ending, eventually.

He mad at me when I accidentally told him that I'm not stable too. LOL.

He forced me to tell him what I've done betraying him.

Wtf? I was like, oppppps! Ahahahahahahaha.

He told me that actually the whole class know things about me and him.

I was so shocked and WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY?

He said lotsa classmates went to ask him about me and all.

But of course, he denied.

He said everyone knows it, just they don't know what actually happens. :O

Omg I'm scare seriously. D; D; D;

When I was about to sleep, he called me dear. I heard it.

But I response nothing, after few minutes then only I said, actually hor, you call me that very hao ting leh.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Then he decided not calling me dear anymore, he said what lah, I was saying deer (鹿). 

Fuck him. LOL.

I remember we talked about future also.

Me: 如果有一天我不告而别，你会不会找我？

Him: 当然是会啦。可是你不告而别，一定有你的原因。

Me: 嗯。然后厚，十年过后我们再见，哪里知道就是你要结婚然后send那个请柬叫我去和你的喜酒。到时候我就要看看，到底是怎样的女生治得了你，受得了你。哈哈哈哈哈！

Him: 做么你没有想过那个女生是你咧？其实我觉得娶老婆就是要娶你这种。真的，没有人像你这样对过我。

Me: -________- 怎样？我怎样？

Him: Neh, 上次我生病那次咯。

Me: 其实你知道吗？ 那时候发生Ms. Rose小姐时间的时候，我一直在想，我做的这些到底为了什么。

Him: 哎哟。对不起啦。那次我真的对不起你。

Me: 不然是我对不起你咩？-.-

Him: 我讲真的。以后我们一定要结婚。

Me: 结你的头。但是你结婚一定要请我去喝啦！哈哈哈哈哈哈

Him: 你当然是会来啦。我结婚就是你结婚你哪里可能不在？

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Frankly, my heart melts, but still, rational will do.

Flirtationship - more than a friendship, less than a relationship.