夜晚。

夜晚显得特别宁静，宁静的时候会想很多。
来英国快半年了，说还不习惯，也不是；说习惯了，也不算是。很矛盾吧？

这学期过得很压力。脱发的问题更显得严重，严重到我真的害怕起来。
很多事情都得突破自己的范围去完成，很多事情得自己亲历亲为去做，
一个人得分身做很多个岗位，我真的很累。
现在真的会在收到email的那分钟害怕起来，害怕的是会因为我错误的决定给把事情砸了。
我不知道可以向谁倾诉。
外人不会了解，都只会愚昧地说，这就是学生的责任啊，放多一点心机啦，花多一点时间之类的话。
你们不懂。

已经连续四天是被电话声给吵醒，因为大家都在为事情在做准备。
根本没办法睡个好觉。
好累，好累。

好久都没跟妈妈视讯了，我好想家。

哭，已经变得很麻木。
很多时候，听着听着熟悉的歌曲也能哭。好讨厌这样的自己。

男朋友每次说我有overthinking的坏习惯。确实。
或许是不安全感吧？从来不被认可所以会不安全感。
想要寄个明信片给他也不行。很无助。
只好把自己想跟他说的话都写在纸上然后收在抽屉里。很sad。
他从来不会po我们的合照。
我好羡慕那个曾经出现在他instagram上面的那个女生，打从心底里羡慕。

啊，那个谁结婚了！
好想邀出席他的婚礼哦，以前说好了一定会请彼此去彼此的婚礼，很可惜，我人在英国。:(
前几天有跟他小聊了一下，好怀念我们以前打打闹闹的日子。
这么快就当爸了，好高兴哦！
是很衷心地为他感到开心，还答应了一定会给他红包里放英镑。哈哈哈！

看了来自星星的你结局篇，哭惨了。
哭的原因不是因为剧情很伤感，而是因为我很了解千颂伊的感觉。
当都敏俊离开的那一刻，我想起男朋友回家的前一天，那种会哭得歇斯底里的感觉，不是说要控制就控制的了。
最重要的是，能相处的时间真的很短，所以会额外的珍惜。这是真的。

Double Valentine's 2014.

First of all, Happy Valentine's Day to everyone.
Stay sweet with your love one for those who are attached, and for those who are single, be patient to wait for your right one, trust me everything is just the matter of time. :)

It's been a while since the previous post. I lost my inspiration to blog I don't know why.
Bare with me kay. Lots of loves.

Frankly, I'm tearing now. Yeah, in a bad mood.
Even though it's valentine's day, but I spent my day on arguing with my boyfriend.
Erm, I shouldn't say it was an arguement, it's just, we both got different thoughts on each other maybe?
Yes, we didn't skype on valentine's, we didn't get to see each other, I wished him happy valentine's day but he didn't, we didn't sweet talk, we didn't say blessing words, we didn't do anything, what we did was, whatsapp about our different opinions.

I don't know how I should take this but, it shouldn't happened on a Valentine's Day, at least.

I don't demand much usually, cuz I know he is not the romantic type of person since the first day I met him.
But at least, don't make me feel lonely, especially we're dealing with LDR, and it's our first Valentine's together.
The suckest part is, I got no friends here who can talk to me on a Valentine's Day.
I do it all to my blanket and pillow, wtf?
Am I too greedy to have sweet words, appreciation, or just some efforts to show me his love?
I don't wish to have roses, branded presents or whatsoever stuffs, I just want to feel some warmth from the one I care. Is it too much? I don't know. :'(

Been crying too much today, I hate myself for being so emotional.
What for I crying this much? No one seems to give a damn, none.
I started to feel helpless on us, I doubt on myself if I can handle LDR well. I'm not sure anymore.

I thought you'll feel the same as me that today is meaningful cuz it's our first Valentine's together.
I thought you'll find it touching to share your thoughts with me on how hard we got together.
I thought you'll tell me how you appreciate to be with me even though the moment we can be together is short.
Everything, is just my own thoughts.
原来一切都只是我想太多。

I wrote him a letter, only get to pass to him on July, if everything is still alright.

Water drinking.

Today post is all about my water drinking habit. I don't know why I have the feeling to blog about it but my brain just told me to. Lol.

I was used to hate drinking water, you know, cuz it's tasteless, boring and yes, as how you can see it from its appearance.

Previously, it was hardly for me to finish drinking a big bottle of 1 litre of water that my mom prepared for me to bring it to school daily. 

I was so sick when I saw that big bottle, I just hate it, without reason.

I only consume more or less 500ml of water daily. I just ignore what my parents told me about 8 glasses of water (2L) is a must for a person, I thought those were bullshits. -.-

Until I started to realize, my skin is getting dry day by day, not only that, it even cracked easily in a sudden.

Slowly this happened to my heels, it cracked and it took a freaking long time to heal and it cracked again after few days. I don't know why it happened but it just did.

Then I met a girl, who is my lifestyle teacher, I call her Jess. 

Jess told me that my body is lacked of water, for years.

She can just tell me from the minute she saw me.

Jess: Girl, did you drink water today?

Me: Hmmm, yeah?

Jess: I mean, alot of water, you didn't even achieve 1L yet, right?

Me: How did you know?

Jess: I saw it from your face, and your skin.

I took her words, seriously. She changed my lifestyle, she made me a healthier person.

Frankly it took some months for me to start drinking, water.

From 500ml perday, 750ml per day, 1L per day, and now, 3.5L per day.

There's an effort needed, and I tried, and the changes proved me.

Less constipation, skin gets smoother, feeling more energetic, and surprisingly, I lose weight! 

Water is a natural calorie-burner. You may have heard that sipping ice water is a good way to burn calories and help you lose weight. 

Although this isn't necessarily true for everyone, it has a large amount of truth behind it. 

When you drink cold water, your body needs to work double time to warm up, increasing the rate your metabolism burns up calories.

One of the best benefits of drinking water is that it acts as a natural cleanser. 

Your body attracts many toxins, from food, the environment and other elements. 

Cleaning it out consistently will help keep it healthy and functioning well. 

There was once a classmate told me stop drinking that much of water, it causes me into edema. In chinese，水腫。

I would like to say, no, you are wrong.

A proper way of drinking water will not cause you into edema. In fact, you need to be smart of drinking water everyday.

It is not about you consume 3L of water in 24 hours and that's it.

NO, YOU ARE TOTALLY WRONG.

We are all taught that drinking eight cups or two litres of water a day is longstanding advice.

For us, Malaysians, we need much more than that I can say to keep our body hydrate. There is climate influences, the weather is too hot.

During our sleeps, 500ml of water will run off automatically when we breath.

Therefore, drinking a 3L water is super normal that WILL NOT cause me into edema.

Drinking a glass of water after you wake up from bed helps in hydrate and wake your organs for a fresh day start.

Stop drinking a lot of water after 9pm to avoid edema and times of visit toilet during your sleeps.

Start drinking water today! Just water, not anything else. :)

P/s: Subjective to different individuals.